"Because my whole life is a lie." I laughed at my own statement.
I heard Jaemin sighed.
It's been weeks, since, after that thing happened. The confession of him, the lies, the hurt. I am still in my deepest grave of unmoving, because it's all that occupies my shitty brain.
I am still living with the same dorm i used to live on, because now, i do not feel what's the feeling of being beaten by their lies and being a fool into their eyes.
In short, i don't care anymore.
I do not know any Haechan. Nor even Jeno and Koeun.
I just only a Mark, myself, a fool, a bastard- whatsoever.
"You still have me, Mark. I dont want this seeing you really sad and stressed." Jaemin said concerned.
"I know. I ain't sad. Aren't at all." I lied.
"But you are torturing yourself." He said in contrary.
I didnt speak back. And i heard him sighing again.
"I think, Haechan has some good points to reason out why did he did that." He said.
"He is still a devil." I said.
"Is that it, really? I think, there is something else." He smiled a bit making me crumple my forehead.
"Stop acting like that, Jaemin. You're weird." I said.
"Nah." He chuckled. "Answer my question. Is it really about of him being a devil or is it about you, afraid of getting hurt about his possible lies again?"
I told you, he is weird.
"I dont get it." I lied again.
"Argh." I saw him rolling his eyes on me.
"Tell me, do you still miss him?" He asked.
I stopped in there, and badly wanna say yes.
But, no. I dont want him hearing me say how i badly want to see him back again.
Haechan lied, and he is a devil. I had already made up of my mind. Im not going to see him.
"Not anymore." I said.
I saw how he stared at me.
"I dont believe you, Mark." He laughed.
"Then, dont." I said trying to sound rude but he just laughed more.
"Dont hide your feelings on me, Mark." He said.
"I dont have feelings for you." I joked.
"Hey!" He suddenly slap me in my shoulder , and its my turn to laugh at him.
"I didn't mean that way!" He yelled at me.
But i just laughed at him.
"Im making fun of you, you dont get it." I said. I saw him rolling his eyes again.
"But anyway .." he stopped.
