✔Endearment of Darkness (EoD)

14.One & Only life.

I'm wearing full sleeve t-shirt and my favorite black and white polka dot short. I'm tried today after spending time with Avi, we went to a movie. I watched a good movie after a long time. Sleep is not coming to me and I took all the prescribed tablets. Still I couldn't sleep. May be washing my face and drinking some water may help.

I dried my face after washing, sometimes it scares me to be alone in this house and this neighborhood. Today is one of those. I switch on mobile's flash light and made my way to living room. I flashed it on switch broad and lights came to life.

All is well. All is well. All is well

Whenever I panic I whisper same mantra to calm myself. I don't know why I'm hesitating to turn around from switch board. There is nobody behind you idiot! Turn around. My subconscious screamed, I take a controlled breathe and turn around. My heart is in my throat when I see my front door.

"Oh my god!.. calm down stupid!" I knock lightly on my chest, my heart is still racing because my stalker's message is already here.

When is he putting anyway? I thought he is putting here in the early morning? No, he can't because it is better for him to put at night. May be he is outside of my house right now. My heart won't stop pounding thinking about him outside, watching me. Omg.

Do not Panic, Brinda! If he is a rapist or something, he would have done that by now.

Yeah, if he were a thief, he would have broken into my house earlier. But he is neither. I slowly bend down to take the paper, my hands are shaking. Before I panic and trip out on floor I snatch it and smile to nobody. See, nothing happened. Everything is fine.

I want to see if he is still outside in dark looking at me but I'm a chicken, I will definitely faint if I even see a cockroach coming out of blue now. So, a big No to peeking outside.

I took the bottle from the fridge and left the kitchen light on. Switched off the living room lights and locked myself in bedroom. Avi said he will take care of my Bed tomorrow, so till tomorrow I need to sleep on floor. I slowly drop to my knees on mattress, setting the pillow to the wall, I lean my back to it and cover my legs with comforter. I was mad at him the other day but he wrote those two words yesterday. He felt guilty for what he said. Good.

Let's see what we have today. This is not a slip, its full paper. My eyes roam all over the paper and I raise my brows. Did he write his life story or something? I sigh closing my eyes once and start reading. I stop when I read first sentence.

Trust yourself.

I swallow and read again.

Trust yourself.

There is no such day without any struggle.

We need to move on leaping through our tears.