I Peed Myself In Front Of My Crush

Chapter 19: The Very First Time

The first time that I had seen Jade was when she had just transferred to our school and she was instantly more popular than Zoe, Paige and me, combined.

Everyone looked up to her, talked about her, and even made rumors about her. Of how she had gotten the privilege of transferring schools in the middle of the session.

No one had fully known why but people sure did like to imagine all the reasons.

To say that I wasn't fazed by this girl's mysterious aura would be a lie because I was interested in finding out why she had changed schools. There was something in me that kept making her look more appealing than she did.

She wasn't that pretty, hell, she wasn't pretty at all with her sharp features and boyish looks. Her long hair was always tied into a pony-tail and she smiled charmingly whenever she did, and this was how she had attracted more girls towards her than boys.

What did surprise me about her was how she had managed to become friends with Tim, who had sworn off friendship ever since Paige had broken up with him. The boy was never the same since then even though I had offered my full support to him, he still didn't seem to look like he was happy.

But, ever since that girl had befriended him, he seemed happier. He smiled more and whenever he made Jade smile, I felt something piercing my heart. I was jealous of that girl since she could be friends with Tim when I couldn't.

I liked Tim even before he had asked Paige to be his girlfriend and I was heartbroken when she had told me that she didn't love him.

Paige and I had been friends ever since we were kids. She was always the shy and nervous kind of girl which is why she was always bullied. She was never brave enough to stand up for herself or even for the things she liked.

I watched her treat all of her things for granted. She didn't know what it felt like to be grateful, which is why I asked her for the things I liked more than she did.

Amusingly, she gave me everything that I asked for.

And when I had asked her to break up with Tim so that I could date him, she had instantly agreed saying that she didn't like him the way he liked her.

I had never been so angry at anyone in my entire life when she had said that. It was like Tim wasn't a human being and was just her possession for her to give him away like that.

That was the day I had begun to hate Paige even when inside my heart I just felt sympathy for the girl.

Zoe always scolded me for taking things from Paige, and I just waved her off since she didn't see how Paige treated her things. No one did. Because no one had been friends with her as long as I had been.

People at school could look at her and admire her from afar but no one could see the girl that hid inside of her, the girl that was afraid and ignorant of her own feelings.

When Jade had transferred to our school, I watched how Paige's eyes watched her from afar, and how she suddenly became interested in someone for the very first time.

I noticed how Paige always stared at the girl, although subtly, but not subtle enough for me to not see.

She was completely smitten by Jade and I didn't even know why, until the time when Paige came out to me telling me how she was interested in girls and Jade, to be specific.

I was surprised by the admission since I had never seen her admitting something as important as that with such decisiveness. She was always doubtful, always thinking, and deciding. And when she talked about Jade to me, about how she was so attractive and cute, I didn't know who to believe.