Blood, Fangs, and Other Stuff (boyxboy)

14

Things have gotten a bit more awkward between Zac and I since that kiss. I've been thinking about it a lot lately, and I've realized there were so many other ways to show the "creatures" we were a couple. We didn't actually have to kiss. We could've hugged or held hands or something. We for sure didn't need to kiss. Unless, Zac just wanted to kiss me? He wouldn't do that right? No, of course not.
It's not like the kiss meant anything. But it feels like it did. Am I just overreacting? Yeah. That's it. Just overreacting.
I was laying in bed, my back turned towards Zac who's lying next to me.
"Stop thinking so much." He whispered into my ear. I completely froze. How does he know I was thinking? In fact, why did he whisper into my ear like a creep?
I turned to face him, our eyes locking. I quickly diverted my eyes somewhere else because I don't like staring at someone for too long.
"What are you thinking about?" He asked.
"Nothing." I lied, he sighed knowing I wasn't telling the truth.
"Fine. I've been thinking about that kiss a lot lately."
"Did you not like it?" He chuckled.
"No. I mean yes. I mean, that's not the point! There were so many other ways to show that we were together without actually kissing. We could've held hands, or hugged, or-." I was interrupted by Zac kissing me... on the lips!
There was an awkward silence in the room when our lips detached.
"I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me. I couldn't control it." Zac apologized frantically.
"It's okay. The kiss wasn't so bad." I awkwardly chuckled to lighten the mood.
"Yeah. So I'm gonna go and get some food. I'll see you later." And he was gone.
WHAT THE FUCK JUST HAPPENED? DOES ZAC LIKE ME? DO I LIKE ZAC? I DON'T KNOW!!!
Zac's just my guard, nothing else. Then why am I glad he kissed me?
I called Jessy because I'm so conflicted with my own feelings right now. Do I like him? Do I not?
"Well, did you enjoy it?" Jess asked through the phone.
"I didn't hate it. Jess, I don't know what to do. Should I confront him? Should I ask him out or act like this didn't happen?"
"Do you like him?" There was a long pause. THAT'S MY PROBLEM I DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL!!!
Jessy picked up on why I was being so quiet suddenly. "What do you feel when he walks into the room?"
"I don't know. I sometimes feel happy when I see him, there would be this good tingly feeling in my stomach, and I can't help but want to get his attention all the time. Oh lord, I like him don't I?"
"Yes, bitch, you do!" She squealed loudly through the phone.
"Jess, what should I do? Should I tell him how I feel?"
"That's a question you have to answer yourself. Hey, I gotta go. My fuck buddy just woke up, bye!" The line went dead.
I threw my phone onto my bed and sighed. I don't know what to do!!
An hour later, I was still in my room, pacing in circles. I stopped when I saw Zac climb in through the window. We both stopped what we were doing, and stared at each other for who knows how long. It was so long to the point where it started to get really awkward.
"Hey." Zac spoke first.
"Hey." I looked down at my feet, not wanting to look up at him anymore.
We were silent for a couple of minutes. There's just a lot going on in my head right now, it doesn't feel very quiet to me.
You know what? Fuck it! I'm gonna tell him how I feel. Wait, should I?
"I think I like you." We both said in unison. Oh my fucking god! THANK THE LORD AND SAVIOUR!! It would've been so bad if he didn't like me, but thank god he does.
We both chuckled awkwardly, not knowing what to say to each other now.
"I'm glad you like me too." Zac said after a long pause, "but I'm not so sure if our relationship would work out."
"Why?"
"Because I'm you're guard. I'm suppose to be protecting you, and if I let my feelings for you go before my senses, things would get ugly. If anything were to happen to you, I wouldn't be thinking straight."
I stepped closer to him. "We'll make it work."
We both smiled at each other.