stardust | ✔

xiii.

'SORRY'

i'm sorry,

that i can't help you.
that i don't know what to say
or do to make you feel better.

that my words can't comfort you,
that my embrace won't warm the cold,

your hands are bruised and blue.
and i can't fix that.

and i'm sorry,
i'm sorry,
so sorry,
that i choke
whenever i try.

that my skin is frail and dry.
i'm sorry that i'm not that
perfect person you need to survive.

that i am not strong
and i can't pull you up,

that you drown in this ocean
of anxiety and fear
and all i can do is watch.

and i'm sorry that when i speak
that i stutter and the words
come out tangled within each other.

that my words will never be enough.
that because of my stubborn head, i won't be able to love.

and i'm sorry,
so sorry,
so very sorry.

i'm so sorry,
i'm so sorry.

and i've tried
and tried
and tried,

because we're both
sick and tired.

of life and living
the taking and giving.

and i just want to help.

i just want to help.

i just want to help--and i wish i knew what i should do,

to make all that pain
go away,

i wish i knew
how to comfort you,

kiss those tears away.

but i don't.

so i'm sorry.

because that's all
i could ever be.

sorry.

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