Bite me, Alpha

Chapter Twenty-Five

Xavier pulled back and put his forehead against mine, gently wiping my tears away as he stared at me with so much love and adoration that it made my heart swell, the butterflies in my stomach coming alive from the look he is giving me. Pressing a small smile to his lips as I listened to him take in a heavy breath. "I'm sorry"

Tilting my head a little to try and get a better look of his features, to try and piece together what he means. Trying to push myself into his thoughts to be able to understand what is going on in his mind, to try and work out what he is feeling but it was blank, emotionless even. Licking over my lips as they felt chapped from crying as my eyebrows went together. "What are you sorry for?" My voice barely above a whisper.

Xavier trailed a finger along my jaw gently letting the sparks come alive, making my wolf relax in the back of my mind. The tense feeling inside no longer taking over as I felt relaxed by his touch instantly. Leaning down he pressed a gentle kiss to my forehead, lingering there for a few seconds before pulling away and staring back down at me with so much love.

"For making you re-live it again, for not holding it completely together, for pushing for the answers and for just once letting my damn mouth be shut,"

His words barely above a whisper between us, his eyes glossy from the tears he is trying to hold back. Lifting my fingers to run down his tense jaw, the atmosphere heavy around us as i cup his cheek in my palm and press our foreheads together, letting my eyes closed as i take in a shaky breathe.

"Baby," I start with a low whisper, shaking my head with a small movement. "Do not feel guilty for that, you are my mate and we need to work together to get through this. You don't have to be strong for me when I know you are hurting just as bad, i may of lost our child but the thoughts that must be going through your head is most likely worse than the ones going through mine"

Xavier moved his arms so they are wrapped tightly round me, pulling me flush against him. Not even a thin single piece of paper would be able to fit in the space between us as he pressed us tightly against each other. For me, i was unsure if it was my heart beat i could feel or his, the sound pulsating against my ears as my chest heaved up and down.

Opening my eyes to stare into his, gently rubbing his nose against mine, the small affection causing a burst of energy to ignite through my body down to my toes. The fireworks setting off in my stomach as the tingles danced across each part of my skin, leaving trails of goosebumps on the way.

"I fucking love you, the thought of ever having the small chance of losing you makes death sound like a party" Xavier mumbled, his lips only a centimetre from mine as his breath mingled with my own. "Telling you that you are my world is nothing close to how I truly feel for you. Telling you that I am so fucking in love with you is not even a little of the resemblance to my feelings, you are the most magnificent person i will ever meet"

Swallowing back the lump that had formed, my arms tightening around him as i buried my head into his shoulder to try and give him the comfort he gives me, to try and show him that I am here for him as much as he is for me. That no matter what happens from here on, we are a team.

We may fight over small things or big things, we may not have the same thought process and disagree about everything but we are one. We balance each other out and it wouldn't matter if i tried to fight against it like i used to. We are perfect for each other, even if we both are hot headed and stubborn.

"I love you"

"I fucking love you"

His words mumbled into my neck, leaving tingles right down to my toes. Xavier pulled us so i was sat in his lap with my arms wrapped round his neck and legs tightly round his waist, keeping us flush together as it was silent for a moment around us. The words sinking it.