I'm Here to Fix You - Broken Souls Series #2

Miranda

Super-short, but it needs to be a stand-alone. About the title, if you get what it means, please, don't spoil it for the others :P

CHAPTER 63 - MIRANDA 

"You should sleep."

I think I've heard that sentence a billion times already. "So should you."

"Yes, but ..." Tess heaved a shaky sigh. When I looked up, I noticed her tear-stained face. "It won't help, you know?" She claimed, her voice broken. "I ... I-I tried that, but ... b-but it served to nothing ..."

"Tess ..." I reached out for her hand across the bed.

She burst out crying for the fifth time today. On cue, David pulled her into his arms, but it didn't really serve to much. "I'll take her out for some fresh air." He said. I nodded without even thinking.

I watched them leave, or rather, David basically carry a distraught Tess out of the room. She seemed close to fainting. To be honest, I would talk about how I understand, how I can understand what she's going through, I would describe everything that happens, but ... I'm tired. I ... I don't even have the strength to talk, to think, to live.

My eyes fell onto the bed. The beeping of the machine gets more deafening by the hour. My left hand was still in hers. For some stupid reason I thought I should keep it there, that way I would know if she moved, but mainly, I ... I didn't want her to feel alone.

I know, it's probably stupid, but ... I just ... I mean I know how it feels to be unconscious for a long time, I know how coma works, I've been there, so I know that she's probably out there, wandering around, unable to find the way back. I want her to know there is a way back. I want her to know she's not alone.

"They've kept you away from me for 13 months." I mentioned, pulling closer enough to hold her hand in both mine, and kiss it as tears once again started streaming my cheeks. "I know you were lost these months. I know it felt like I abandoned you. But I haven't. I never will." I pressed my lips to stifle a sob as tears blurred my sight. "I'm here, baby. I'll always be here." I took a moment to breathe, because I barely could. "I never lied when I said those things ..." I kissed her hand. "I really can't even breathe without you, Silvia. I ..." My voice failed me, so I shut up, and closed my eyes, trying to regain my strengths, at least enough to speak.

"If ... if you're there, searching for a light that'll guide you home, I ... no. That would be a lie. I'm not your light. You are my light. I ... I was nothing but a murky cloud of darkness. You ... y-you loved me back to life." Fuck these waterworks. "I ... the truth is, you gave me life, yet I took yours. I ... I'm not your light. I ... I'm just a fool man that's begging you to come back. I don't even know if it's worth it. It's ... it's not even about you. The truth is, this is a selfish need. I'm begging you, not for your sake, not your father's or mother's, not even Tess' ... I'm only begging you for my sake. I need you. I don't live without you. I am withering away without you.

And it's alright, I deserve it. I deserve to rot away in the murkiest abyss for what I've done to you. But ... still, I'm selfish. So I'm here, begging you." I brought her lifeless hand to my heart, barely able to stifle my sobs anymore. "This ... you can feel this? It keeps on slowing down. Every minute of you less if one beat less. I ... if you really have to leave, then ... take me with you. Don't ... don't leave me here alone again. I'm begging you. Don't ... don't let me live without you."

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COLIN'S POV

"They're considering it." David gazed at Tess, worried. She sat at Silvia's bedside, as usual. She and Jake barely even stand up from their seats.