Missed my chance. Missed my "happiness". Missed what we could've been. I missed all the chances because I never took the chance. Then we got close and you saw how I really was and it didn't attract you as much as it used to. I'm too nice. Too sweet. Something you're not used to. That's why I didn't finally get my chance. You moved onto someone else who I hope makes you happy. Yes it was my mistake, but this time you also had the choice to decide what could've happened, and I see what happened. I'm not going to hold a grudge or get pissed off about it because I did the same thing to you. Love and relationships aren't about "if it happens it happens." It's about if you want it to happen you'd make it happen. It's all a choice. Life's a choice. And I waited too long to get my choice of what I wanted, what I needed. You saved me from my darkest nights, but I think it's also made some of my darkest nights recently what you did. Idk how you handled it when I did it, cause I can't handle it. I'm drinking heavier, I'm trying to forget my past. I'm trying to forget my last. She keeps texting me getting into my mind, but you wouldn't know cause you ignore me now every time We speak. You could never be too busy to reply to me, because you're obviously replying to someone else. I'm sorry. " I know I need to tell you, I can't before it's too late
Before someone steps to the plate, before you decide not to wait" -Witt.
I hope you get everything you deserve. I hope you get the happiness you deserve. Because right now I'm fucking depressed and don't know what to do or who to try and help me because you were always the one, but now you're the issue and it's because it was my mistake. I can't even come over and hang anymore and stare at you talking about how beautiful you are because you're already with someone else. Man this shit does fucking hurt.
-Goodbye
