"Fate" | #Wattys2018 |

Chapter 38 ## His Letter

(play the song guys. ;-))

Everyone claps.

Everyone smiles.

Everyone congratulates.

But me?

I'm drowning within the thick air surrounds me.

Again.

And the worst part is that there is no good back, only forward.

Mouthing everyone a small thank you I make my way towards the only place which can give me comfort.

My feet lead me in my room where I gaze through the window and climb up through it towards the banister to sit on the roof. It's the safest place away from everyone.

Away from us.

The second I sit on the roof everything stops in their track.

I feel lost.

I have spent countless nights here, sitting on the roof away from everyone.

Everything.

The only good memory about this roof is when Alex discovered this place. He was adamant to make me sit here and I was scared like shit. After that we started to spend every night here.

Sometimes together.

Sometimes only me.

Just some hours ago I was content, strong but now I feel like I don't even know how to put things together back.

My attempts aren't strong enough now.

Never have been before.

I was so lost in thought that I didn't even realize when a figure climbed up from my window, standing behind me.

"What are you doing here?" I'm frustrated. Right now I don't need  anyone, specially him.

"Mind if I take a seat?" He cocks his head ignoring my question.

I don't reply and turn my head as he takes a seat beside me.

No one says a word.

Not a single word.

Comfortable silence.

But I can feel hid gaze burning hole in the side of my face.

I spun my face and ask," what?"

"Nothing"

"You just look beautiful."

Then I see his face in the sparkles of moonlight. Looking devastatingly handsome as always. The blue eyes which look deeper than any sea are gleaming, making it more vibrant. His facial features are more prominent than the last time I saw him. There is no doubt he's one of those man who became more handsome with age.

But for one mere second behind this prominent facing features, his neatly trimmed beard, there is a boy.

My best friend.

My first love.

My first everything.

How much I try to ignore the fact but with whom I fell madly in love.

I shake my head thinking my mind is fucking playing games with me.

"Are you happy?" He asks catching me off guard all of sudden. His voice laced with so much emotions, I'm trying hard to forget.

I don't answer.

Again silence creeps over us but this time it's

Depressing.