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Warning, there's some sensitive content. As a person who went through this, I kinda put my own reasoning into it so it may not make sense to everyone 💖
Fp POV:
I don't think there is anything she can do to make me hate her, or even dislike her in anyway. No matter what she does I always seem to welcome her back with open arms.
When I wake up I'm glad to find her still next to me. I close my eyes trying to fall back asleep but I feel her stir next to me and tuck herself further into me. I can feel her eyes on my face and she confirms my thoughts when she traces my jaw with her hand. So I open my eyes and smile at her.
"Before you gloat, I only came here so I could get a good night sleep" she defends herself sitting up. I pull her back down so she slaying next to me again and I play with her hair.
"So this guy doesn't give you a good nights sleep?" I smile a little smugly and she scoffs and rolls her eyes at me.
"But seriously you came here for a reason" I tell her.
"I guess you make me feel safe, I don't know" she shrugs shyly rare for her but adorable.
"So this cult stuff, I'm guessing it's just a phase" I assume and she ignores it.
"What time is it?" She changes the subjects.
"3:36" I reply looking at my clock.
"In the afternoon?" She asks looking completely astonished.
"Yeah I thought that was obvious" I say rubbing my eyes.
"God the kids will be up, I'm supposed to meet Eddie" she gets up looking for her clothes which at some point she must have taken off. She aways likes to sleep without them, more comfortable I guess though I'm the same.
I watch her pick up her top and put it on and can't help but notice her hip bones pop out more, come to mention it so do her collar bones and when she turns around I can see the outline of her spine a little too much.
"Come here" I order patting in front of me.
"I've got to go" she replies frantically looking for her trousers.
"No you don't come here" I try again starting to get worried. She ignores me.
"I said come here god damn it" I don't mean to shout but I do and she freezes up flinching in the slightest proving my theory this cult stuff and this Eddie guy she's seeing are not helping her get over her past trauma at all.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to shout" I assure her softening my voice completely and beckoning her over.
She finally does it sitting in front of me. I pull her into a hug only now feeling how boney she is. There's no meat on her what so ever.
"What is this for?" She asks letting herself calm down on me all the same.
"Have you been eating?" I ask carefully.
"Of course" she replies quickly getting up again to put the rest of her clothes.
"Hold on where ever you need to be it's probably too late, take a day away" i suggest needing to talk to her more.
"Uhh I really should get going" she replies swiftly slipping out of the bedroom and I hear the trailer door shut.

Alice POV:
I didn't think anyone would notice. I had been eating less and less. Not because I was self conscious but because in the chaos of my life my weight and how much I eat was something I could control. And then I lost my appetite all together because I'm so busy and eating just adds to the list of chores I need to do.
"Sorry honey I was at the register" I lie to Betty as she and Jug eat lunch.
"It's fine mom" Betty replies.
"Yeah you had Polly and Jug after all" I say forgetting she didn't know I knew Jug sneaks in.
"Well Polly, and then now you have Jug" I ramble shutting myself up before I dig a deeper hole for myself.
"Righttt, the twins or in there with Polly" Betty says gesturing to the living room.
"Okay sweetie" I reply taking off my coat and hanging it up before going to see Polly.
"Hey honey how are the twins?" I ask taking juniper from her.
"They are fine, Eddie came by asking for you. You were supposed to meet him today" Polly says.
"Yeah I'm sorry about that I got caught up at work" I lie and she sighs.
"How are you supposed to take all this seriously if your not showing up to your meetings mom? This ring doesn't mean nothing you know" she lectures pointing to my hand.
"I've been meaning to ask, what exactly does it mean?" I ask genuinely confused.
"Your joining us fully silly, we all have them. Yours is just extra nice because your dating Eddie" she displays her own plain silver band with a small silver feather on the top.
Dating is that what me and Eddie are doing. Isn't there supposed to be some sort of spark for that?
"About that...I'm not sure if I'm cut out for that. I mean you know me, I'm not really that type of person" I admit. A gang I can deal with in fact I loved being in the serpents and care for them a lot but a cult just sounds crazy to me.
"You can't back out now mom. I won't tell Eddie you said that for your own good" Polly says almost telling me off.
"What would he do?" I challenge.
"You'd be surprised, just don't mess with this stuff. If you have made the commitment you must follow it through. You've seen his nice side but you should see how he is with the people who don't honour their commitment, especially back at the farm" she says being dead serious. I shrug it off choosing to take it that she's over exaggerating but part of me can't help but think she could be telling the truth.