You Always Build It Better the Second Time Around

(Yu) Chapter 32 - Treacherous (Waters on the Half Side)

With war literally right around the fucking corner of hell, there's a logical explanation as to why everyone's acting so... antsy and paranoid. Myself included, though I'm just more humorously angry- meaning I laugh at all those little things that I didn't preciously care about that make me angry. Take Shiho and Yoichi for example. Can't they just confess and fuck already? I mean, Shinoa and Mitsuba beat them. I was rooting for Shiho and Yoichi!

Also. Koba is smart, and Mikaela is too lovable and handsome as hell.

Of course I'm still angry at Koba, but I can't be hating him for the past. I don't want to miss out on what I love him for in the future, and what will become of us in the future. I'm angry at Koba for what he's done, but right now, I don't have enough anger and hate to go around, so Nikolai has the honor of getting all of the negative feelings. I can't help but love Koba- as a brother, of course. I took my anger out on him a while ago. He's forgiven now. At least, I say he is. There will always be a part of me that resents the darkness that overtook him when he took me that night. But, no matter what, I'll stand by him from this point forward. Our relationship might not ever be repaired to how it was (ignore the part where we killed innocent people), but we can rebuild it to something like that.

I'm loyal to a fault, it seems.

Moving on from the heavy topic of Koba and me, and our bittersweet past, the familiars joining the war are training with each other. It's no surprise I'm paired with Crowley, as this war is because of me, and Crowley is one of the strongest in the entire Heavens. However, I train only a bit with Crowley, as Mikaela and I need to meet Koba before his early departure to the battlefield so that he can help us unseal the rest of our power. Mikaela is praised a hell of a lot more seeing as it's gone pretty much public (through rumors) that he's stepping up to his rightful position as a higher god like his predecessor.

I wonder how he's going to react when more information about his predecessor, his father, is revealed to him. I wonder if he'll change somehow. I mean, he's already been acting quite strange since yesterday when Ferid drugged Krul.

I'm so confused with dates at this point in time. It wasn't technically set in stone that we would be going to war in three days, and now that it's that time, I think Monroe meant that in three days he'd make a plan to set an actual date for war. That, or he's contemplating life and whether or not he should waste it on a useless thing like me. Whatever. It's a good thing I'm not anyone's Divine Familiar. I don't think I'd last over a year with these gods, as I feel like killing myself right now with all these idiots I'm surrounded by.

Crowley says I'm ready after hours of nonstop training, but I'm not sure what the hell that even means. Apparently, since Nikolai experimented on me, my brain is even more highly functional and has a high level of neuroplasticity, so I learn quickly, effectively, and I can pretty much multitask. My brain is coding and decoding events, experiences, and making changes far quicker than normal, even for gods.

Conclusion of this knowledge: fear me, bitches.

I bring this up to Koba, as I'm sure he has more information about it, before Mikaela makes it to the library to officially unseal our power. Koba tiredly raises his eyes from his private studying of whatever the hell he's reading- "Contractual Relationships of Divine Beings and Their Familiars."

What the fuck? Should I even ask?

"From what I can recall off the top of my head, there's no doubt there's some sort of device- a chip- that hasn't been removed yet by the surgeons here, or hasn't been found," Koba explains, clearly exhausted. "The latter most likely the truth."

"Ah," I interrupt his next train of thought. "In my eye," I inform him, pointing to my right eye. "It's been hurting a bit these last few days."

"Does Mikaela know?" Koba asks, seeming to find a little interest in this new topic.