"I DON'T know what got into you, Samuelle. But thank you, you made me happy," he said habang yakap-yakap ako mula sa likod at nakasiksik ang mukha sa may leeg ko. Tuluyan nang tumulo ang mga luhang pilit kong pinipigil dahil sa sinseridad ng boses niya.
"I-I'm so sorry, Claus . . . I'm so sorry . . ." basag ang boses na bulong ko at hindi na napigilan pang humagulgol nang mas humigpit lang ang yakap niya at mas nagsumiksik sa may leeg ko. I used both of my hands to cover my face when he turned me around so that I can face him.
"It's okay baby . . . it's okay . . . shh don't cry . . ." pagpapakalma niya sa 'kin pero mas lalo lang akong naiyak.
I wonder how much of a wonderful person I am in my past life to have me marry such a good man in this lifetime. He's like an angel. And I immediately felt like I really don't deserve being here with him when all I give him is pain and heartaches.
"It's okay, Samuelle, I'm okay. Just promise me one thing baby . . ." he said na nakakuha ng atensyon ko. I looked up to see his face, he's staring straight into my eyes. It's as if he was seeing something inside me just by staring at it. Inipit niya sa tainga ko ang ilang tikwas na buhok na humaharang sa mukha ko, bago marahan at puno ng pagmamahal niyang hinaplos ang aking mukha.
"It's okay Samuelle, I'm okay. Just promise me that no matter how happy you were with him . . ." aniya sabay nag-iwas ng tingin at bumuga ng hangin bago binalik sa'kin ang kanyang mga mata at binigyan ako ng isang ngiti.
As I was looking at him, I can't stop myself from being amazed at how perfect he is—inside and out.
Too bad, he has me as his wife.
The only flaw he will ever have.
"No matter how happy you were with him. Please . . . please, Samuelle. At the end of the day, promise me . . . that you'll come back to me no matter what. Promise me that you will always go home to me." Hindi agad ako nakasagot sa kanya dahil sa pagkabigla.
What did I do to have someone like him in my life? Bakit sa'kin pa? He deserved someone better. Someone who can love him, who can take care of him.
Someone who is . . . faithful.
Agad akong sinugod ng konsensya nang masalubong ko ang mga mata niyang nagmamakaawa.
"I'll pretend like I don't know anything. We'll be happy. Just promise me, Samuelle. Please . . . I'm begging you . . ." Naikuyom ko ang mga kamao ko.
He should not be doing this.
I don't deserve this kind of treatment. He should be shouting at me, hurting me at least. But he's here, begging me to stay with him even though he knew about my infidelity.
"C-claus . . ." basag ang boses na tawag ko sa kanya.
"Please, Samuelle? Please . . . " Tuluyan na 'kong kinain ng konsensya ko nang makita ko ang pagtulo ng luha mula sa mga mata niya na agad niya namang pinunasan.
Sunod-sunod ang naging pagtulo ng nag-uunahan kong mga luha.
I was hurting for him. I was hating myself on behalf of him.
Kasi . . . he would not do that.
He doesn't want to hate me, no—he can't hate me.
He's hurting and yet, he's still begging me to stay. I've done enough damage already at ayaw ko nang dagdagan pa.
That's why I nodded.
"I'm sorry, Claus . . . I'm so sorry."
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Almost Over (SP #1)
General FictionFirst Installation of Series of Pain (Formerly The Unfaithful) Samuelle "Elle" Evans is married to Claus Zco for three years already. However, she was in a relationship with her long-time boyfriend, Tim Villagracia for five years and counting. How c...
