everything is fine

veintisiete

sent at 3:27 am est

ryan r sent a message to gays only!

rr: i can't do this anymore

rr: he just came home and he woke me up and he won't shut the fuck up

rr: i'm so tired of locking myself in my room

rr: i'm tired of getting beaten up

rr: one of these days he's going to end up killing me or i'll end up killing myself

rr: i hate him so much for being such a shitty person

rr: i hope my mom is fucking happy living her life in fucking stupid california and being a happy fucking person even though she left her son and husband to rot and kill each other

rr: the only reason why i'm still here is because i don't want to know what'll happen to him if i leave

ps: ryan

rr: real dad you're back

ps: yeah :')

ps: have you called child protective services on your dad or anything?

ps: because you should get someone involved

rr: they're just gonna take me away and then what

rr: he'll kill himself without me here

ps: he's an alcoholic, right

rr: yeah

ps: they'll send him to rehab and therapy and he'll be in good hands

ps: ryan you need to get someone involved

rr: what about me

rr: they're gonna put me in a foster home

ps: that's going to be the best for you

rr: no it fucking won't be

ps: you have to trust them.

ps: you can't keep living the way you are and you've been saying you're sick of it

ps: why don't you want it to change?

rr: i do want it to change

rr: but i don't have a choice

ps: you have to call someone or i'll do it for you

ps: you do have a choice, you just don't want to acknowledge it

ps: listen, i know it's going to be really hard to leave your dad like that but you have to

rr: i just wish he didn't love alcohol more than he loves me

rr: he just gets so violent when i hide all of his shit

ps: ryan you really have to let him get the help he needs

ps: you have to get the help you need

ps: and i'm saying this because i really do care about you and so does everybody else and you really don't deserve to have to deal with this

ps: if you don't call someone tomorrow then i will.

rr: i'll try

ps: thank you

ps: anyways, i'm really tired and tomorrow's monday so i should probably go to sleep now

ps: unless you want me to stay?? because i can if you need me to

rr: no it's fine i'm going to sleep now too

ps: goodnight 💕💕

rr: goodnight