Elyse Sierra's life isn't exactly stuck in a rut but for years now, she's been living like a hermit with no dreams to chase and plans for her future. Ito ang kinalabasan ng kanyang plano para hanapin ang kanyang sarili. Kaya't ngayon, ang hangad lan...
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I blinked back my tears and went inside. Sa sobrang tagal kong nakatayo sa gitna ng pintuan ay hindi ko namalayang pasikat na ang araw.
Elyse, pull yourself together!
I composed myself and went back in. Dumiretso ako sa storage room para ilabas ang pinakamalaki kong maleta. I have to start packing. Sigurado rin naman kasing hindi ako makakatulog.
Also, I know that Erex doesn't owe it to me but I hope he'll at least let me know if he was able to talk to Jen. For my peace of mind? To ease my conscience? Or to make sure Erex is okay as well?
No, I don't think he's okay. If only I can be there for him. Though as much as I want to, hindi puwede. It won't be healthy for me.
Puro ako buntong-hininga habang nililinisan ang alikabok mula sa suitcase. After doing so, I dragged it until my room. Bumaba nga lang ulit ako para kunin ang checklist na ginawa ko kahapon. Doon ko na naalalang i-check ang aking phone.
Medyo nataranda ako nang makita ko ang sangkatutak na messages at missed calls mula kay Klara simula kagabi hanggang kaninang madaling araw.
I decided to video call her since she's online.
"Sorry!" I gave her a playful smile and a peace sign.
Inilapit niya nang husto ang kanyang mukha sa screen ng phone at parang inaaral ang mukha ko. She's in her PJs and it looks like she's in the middle of eating.
"Oh my God! Grabe, akala ko kung may masama nang nangyari sa'yo!" Kulang na lang ay mag-materialize siya mula sa phone para batukan ako.
"Sorry, a lot happened," tugon ko't naupo sa sofa.
"I bet. You...look like hell! Alam mo bang sinubukan kong tawagan si Jaren pero pati siya, 'di ko ma-reach! Even your parents. Sobrang nag-worry ako. Ano ba ang nangyari?"
"About that. Nandito si Kuya JJ. And my mom..." I stopped. Where do I even start my story?
"Elyse, what is it?"
I decided to pour my heart out to her. Idinetalye ko ang mga pangyayari. I even talked too fast that she had to ask me to slow down. I managed to not cry. Nailabas ko na yata lahat kanina.
Tuloy ay tuyong-tuyo ang lalamunan ko nang matapos ko ang lahat. Medyo na-guilty ako nang sabihin ko ang tungkol kay Jen. But Klara won't understand it if I miss that part out. I also told her that Erex went to Jen earlier.
"Are you sure she's not just exploiting your kindness?" tanong niya.
"Klara!"
"Nagtatanong lang naman. Pasensiya na kung medyo cynical. Baka naman kasi alam ni Jen na masyado kang understanding kaya she expected an outcome like this."
"I talked to her and I felt it. I also saw it in her eyes. It's not like that. Not all wounds are visible!" Tumaas talaga ang boses ko kaya't nagulat siya.
