Maddie Dempsey and Justin Foley were what people thought were the cliche highschool romance, and maybe at first glance they were, but when you look deeper into the story, the way Hannah Baker did, you'll see so much more.
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"For those of you who aren't Zach you can relax." Maddie couldn't help but scrunch up her face, did Hannah really think that any one would relax just knowing that it wasn't their tape? Did Hannah ever even think about how these tapes would affect others? So many unanswered questions were once again beginning to float around and she couldn't help but feel a sense of uncomfortably, but she ignored it the best she could and kept listening.
"As for you Zach I wonder if you ever felt what it's like to be lonely.." Maddie couldn't help but roll her eyes, yet again as she began to mutter under her breath. "You know damn well he's felt lonely." Maddie couldn't help the hatred that building inside her again, it wasn't the hatred of the tapes or how it was making her feel it was hatred at the girl and how she treated and acted towards and thought about her brother, that was the whole reasoning behind their falling out, and only Zach knew that.
"Is it even possible to know the feeling of loneliness when you're one of the most popular jocks and not one of those kids who sits alone at lunch, hiding behind a book." Maddie felt as if Hannah was trying to hurt Zach through the tape, maybe that was what she was trying to do to all of them, but all she knew was that Hannah knew the answer to her question and yet she was making one of the best guys in the world feel terrible. Hannah knew how Zach felt at home, Zach opened up to her, Maddie had told Hannah how Zach felt, Maddie had even told Hannah how she herself felt so if Hannah didn't pick up on any of those "hints" then Hannah had no idea what she was talking about in Maddie's opinion.
"You said something stupid and I yelled at you, big deal. You should of let it go. But you didn't let it go. You didn't like that someone told you no. Because guys like you get anything you want right? Can't imagine why a little piece of paper could mean so much? Maybe you don't know what it's like to need a life line, Zach." From the last sentence Maddie quickly pieces together why she had recorded a tape for her brother, it was one of the biggest misunderstandings that Maddie had ever seen in her life, and she only knew this because that sentence was what Maddie heard Hannah yell through the halls when she ran from her brother and to Monets.
"The day after you insulted me in the lunch room my compliment bag was empty. By the end of the second week I knew something was up." Maddie couldn't help hateful thought come to her mind. If you were so lonely, and nobody cared about you, then why would he assume that you even had cards to begin with? And sure, it was a valid question but it only came from the dark part of her mind, the one hat held so much hate that it knew nothing about kindness or love and she had to close her eyes to stop more from coming forward.
"Maybe I should of let it go, but I didn't. I wrote you a letter, I poured my heart out, opening up about personal things I hadn't had the courage to admit to anyone. How hard life was getting, how lonely I felt, and how those stupid compliments actually meant something to me. And then I set my trap, I was hoping once you read the letter you'd get it, you'd realize how much I needed those silly things you were stealing from me. I guess I wasn't even worth a reaction. Why me Zach?" Maddie had to take a deep breath, she'd heard this speech before, and honestly now it had no effect on her. She had heard Hannah say it to Zach and Hannah even said it to Maddie herself, maybe if this was the first time she heard it, it would cause some uproar within her head, her body, or cause some small doubt about her brother and his doings, but now it did nothing, she sat as still as a rock waiting for something to be said she hadn't already heard.
"Why me? I was feeling desperate so I texted someone I thought was a friend. I texted you Jessica, and you said you'd come, and then you didn't. And then I texted the only other person that came too mind, Maddie, Madison Dempsey." Maddie couldn't help the wince and cringe that came into her face and then slowly left as she waited to hear Hannah's voice speak about her.
"You did show up Maddie. You had showed and you had sat down and you listened to me. We didn't order anything we just sat across from each other and I talked while you listened. I remember you had started to tap your finger, then your leg and by the time I finished you looked angry and I immediately begged you not to be mad at your brother, but you said it was me you were mad at." There was a pause in Hannah's words and you heard her take a deep breath and that's what Maddie did following her. "Long story short, you said hurtful things while I tried to make you calm down, the rest will be on your tape, this is not the time or the tape." Maddie let out a breath while her leg tapped very fast onto the hardwood floor.
"After Maddie left I realized I didn't have anymore friends, none, at all. And maybe if I had called Maddie first and spoke nicer she'd still be my friend, but there's nothing we can do now, I mean, I'm gone. You had to know I wrote that note Zach. And you said nothing. You let everyone think it was Sky." Maddie let her features scrunch up slightly while she let confusion take over her body, if Zach had pointed out who it was then she would have hated him, if she had wanted someone to know she would have said something.
"See I have this theory. Zach, I have this theory that you're lonely too. What kind of lonely could Zach Dempsey possibly feel? Maybe that kind where you think no one truly sees you, I know that kind of lonely. Do you? No one knows what's really going on in another persons life, and you never know how what you do effects someone else. And if that goes for me. It most go for everyone. Even cheerleaders. Turn the tape over for more."
~~~Authors Note~~~ So I know this really doesn't count as a chapter, since the only thing that's happening is Maddie's reaction to Zach's tape, and there really isn't much since I have it to where she already knows most of it, and sorry I just have it like that due to their bond. I know this chapter is early I just thought you could use and update and I will try to have another one up on Monday as well. THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR 3k reads!
