I can't believe this is real
I can barely describe how I even feel
A friend just told me my girl is using me
Cheating with some other guy, I thought it was blasphemy
So I confront her at the park with a smile
Asked her "baby this is a joke right?" I laughed and laughed for a while
She looked at the ground for what felt like a whole hour
She looked back with tears in her eyes and things turned sour
I felt my heart banging against my chest
"Let me out! I already know what's coming next!" I felt my heart lay bare across my vest
"I just love him more he's always there for me."
She looked at me not with remorse but with pity
She doesnt know I work 2 jobs, barely minimum wage, $7.50
Just to buy her flowers, hoodies, and cute presents
But she loves this guy who dresses all high but acts like a peasant
Always begging and causing trouble and he's better then me?
I looked her in the eyes and saw all our history
The crying, the fears, everything we survived together
Yet her love for me changes like the weather
I tell myself life is tough it will get better
I save all these quotes on my phone that make me feel so clever
Doesn't change the feeling deep down the scars will last forever
A few days later I wake up alone in my apartment
Alone with my thoughts with nowhere to vent
I havent spoken to her since we left the park
The sun rised, shadows move, damn its already dark?
Another day wasted in bed thinking about you as I stare at the ceiling
I turn over and cry "this really is the worst feeling."
All the love all the care and I'll never know why
You broke my heart to get with a worse guy
The crying, the fears, everything we survived together
Yet her love for me changes like the weather
I tell myself life is tough it will get better
I save all these quotes on my phone that make me feel clever
Doesn't change the feeling deep down the scars will last forever
Weeks go by, my pain puts up a fight, but every day it's a little easier getting out of bed
Now it's only often I wish I found myself dead
Someone told me he broke your heart
What should have made me happy only tore me more apart
"So what the fuck did you do this for? Why did you invite that liar into your heart without checking to see who was at the door?
Why did you build me up and tore me down?
Now that he cheated on you its you who looks like a clown
And yet I'm so mad at myself I'm mad at you
Because of you we broke, everything feel apart, we was through
And now here we both stand empty and broken hearted
Guess you two had that both in common you both wreck lives
You broke my heart and made me try truly want to die
He broke yours and now both of us have cloudy skies
I should be happy that you got what's coming
Karma came out of nowhere like she was summon
But at end of the day all I can do is cry "
Damn
I really loved you
All your scars and flaws. Every argument we been through
Every dance and every joke we told
Every time I bought you flowers, love couldn't be more bold
I wanted to be with you and grow old
Now you left me heart with nothing but this fucking mold
The crying, the fears, everything we survived together
Yet her love for me changes like the weather
I tell myself life is tough it will get better
I save all these quotes on my phone that make me feel clever
Doesn't change the feeling deep down that scars dont heal ever
Now it's been a couple of years
I made it in the world I even impressed my peers
I laugh and joke and learned how to smile
I got my heart back but it took a while
I walk down the street by our old park
The sun was setting it was just getting dark
Then I saw you sitting with someone new
Memories of love that were way over due
Flooded my head and here I thought I was threw
I haven't dated another girl since you
Now you're here with another guy out of the blue
It hurts but I smiled at the same time
Breaking hearts isnt a life sentence crime
Maybe you learned how to love and I'm glad
I loved you how could I ever stay mad?
You turned towards me and I continued walking and I felt your eyes
Burning a question into the back of my skull asking why
Why couldn't this been us why couldn't we be true?
Baby girl I loved you once but now its through
The crying, the fears, everything we survived together
Yet the love for her changed like the weather
I tell myself life is tough but things got better
I have all this experience and wisdom that make me feel so clever
Doesn't change the feeling deep down that scars dont last forever
YOU ARE READING
Poetry
PoetryJust some poetry I make on the fly when my mouth can't speak what emotions I feel, my soul will type them here.
