Libido.

🌸C H A P T E R 17

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"So how have you been?"

We were now at a bar, several miles into the city, right next to Times Square. Mr. Calloway let the kid roam around. We were kind of alone, it was midday so no one was at the bar really.

"I've been good...I guess." I said, trying not to make it awkward.

I was failing miserably.

"How have you been?"

I'm literally kicking myself right now!

I literally almost kicked this guys ass last week!

And now we're talking like I didn't just try to kill him.

"I've been...down. Truthfully, it hasn't been good this past month." He said, slowly sipping his whiskey.

"Why is that? Besides me...er um.." I stutter. He chuckles a bit.

"It's fine Adam. I honestly was expecting that." He said. "It wasn't broken, the bleeding stopped two days ago."

"...Good." I say, followed by a tense smile.

"Well...these past 6 years have been the most rough and draining years of my life." He went on to say. I leaned into his direction to hear more.

"After that night when you ran out, I couldn't sleep. I just knew you weren't going to talk to me again. I didn't hear your special knock the next day, and the plane ride to school I didn't say a word. Not even a month into school, I find out that Nina, the girl I was messing with while we were together had gotten pregnant. I wasn't going to just up and leave her and not support my baby. So I let go of my full ride and dropped out of school to take care of them."

I was staring at him intently, kind of snickering in my head at his demise. I didn't want to be an asshole, so when I felt myself smiling I would look at my hands.

"Then what happened.." I say, twirling my glass in the air with my wrist.

"I still felt...empty." He said.

He paused for a bit, and met my eyes.

"I didn't feel happy. I still had strong feelings towards men and I was drifting away from Nina. So one day we got into a big fight she basically said that she never wanted to see me again. To this day, I don't know where she is, or where my child is." He said simply.

When he said this, I actually felt bad. He can't see his child and doesn't know where the baby is because his babies' mother won't allow him to see it.

"Wow uh...how did the boy get into the picture?" I said, sipping my glass.

"Well, my son Gabe...he came into the picture because I was feeling withdrawals from not having my child in my life. So I found a way to cheat the legal system and adopt Gabe." He said with a small chuckle.

"And how the hell did you do that?" I asked, unsure of what he was about to say next.

"A lot of forging signatures and other illegal shit but I got my son when he was about 9 years old. Here I am, with a kid that I barely know much about at a very young age. My parents called me stupid and a disgrace so they kicked me out, with a 9 year old."

I just stared at him, eyes literally wide and staring at him like he's a crazy ass nigga.

"Are you crazy?!" I exclaimed, not loud enough to receive attention.

"Like I said, these past 7 years were the craziest years of my life." He said, chuckling a bit.

"I almost don't believe you because it doesn't make sense, but it still wouldn't explain Gabe...so keep going." I said with an eye brow raised.

He grinned a bit and shrugged a bit. He flagged the bartender down to make him another drink.

"I some how got my life together and was able to get back on my feet by my distant relatives, some other cousins I usually didn't talk to just took my kid and I in and I was able to get into school and actually finish my early. I went into school during every summer break and aced all of my classes and made myself and my son so proud. But still, something wasn't filled. I started to have a crush on this guy that was on the football team and at the time, I didn't know he was in the closet." He said, I noticed his eyes feeling up with tears.

"He and I hit it off...and some of the guys on the team noticed that we were getting closer and I they literally outed us in front of the entire school at a football game, the whole crowd went silent and my son stared down at me from the stands...completely devastated and ran out of the stadium." He said, as a single tear streamed down his face.

"...May I ask why you didn't tell him?" I said, wanting to know more.

"I felt like my sexual orientation didn't matter or it shouldn't have been a problem. But the guy and I got through it all and when we graduated, he asked me to marry him. From there I took his last name, and we moved here to continue this family." He finally said.

"Wow that was...wow." I said, nodding my head in a confused manner.

This sounded like the most elaborate lie I've ever heard.

But obviously since it's so elaborate, and due to the content in this extravagant story, it's all so true.

"Yeah, like I said it was a roller coaster of emotions and I went through a lot of shit!" He said with a chuckle.

I nodded slowly making a shocked face. He smiled and sipped his glass again.

"So, ill ask you again. How have you been?"

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