Band Imagines

Little Cuts

A.N.
This is a request from pierce_the_girl sorry it took so long college has been in full swing. Also there is sensitive content in here like drugs and self harm read at own risk.

You slid down the door,  tears streaking down your cheeks in great volume. He rejected you. You had liked him for a while and wanted to finally tell him. You knew that he slept around a lot and smoked way too much but you still fell in love with him. Your dad didn't know much about him so he didn't see his flaws. He just knew that his little girl loved the boy.
Got cuts on your eyes preaching to me saying that you sympathize misunderstanding am I right, it's you that needs glasses
You started sobbing when you heard these opening words. It hurt and before you knew it you found yourself on your bathroom floor with a blade to your wrists.
Why can't you see that I'm okay that you take more drugs than me chewing on your cheek, I can't believe that you put me in a straight jacket
  You carefully cut the cocaine that he had left and made it into lines. You took one down and leaned back against the bathtub waiting for it to kick in like it would do in a few minutes. So you decided to watch the blood that was trailing down your fingertips onto the floor. It was a pretty red color and you couldn't help but get distracted by it. You laughed to yourself if only your dad was here to see you like this. He would be so mad. But who cares, he's on tour right now and left you to stay with a babysitter basically that is out partying at some club. You tried to convince him that you didn't need a babysitter but he insisted saying that you were only fifteen and you had to have someone to stay with you by law.
They tried to put me on Ritalin visions of calming me down they tried to put me on Ritalin hopin' I don't make a sound
You chuckled when you saw the bottle of antidepress sitting on the sink. So much for those working considering the situation you are in now. You sighed as you looked down at the blood around you. The cuts had long stopped bleeding but there was blood on the floor and on your clothes. The cocaine had long kicked in leaving you dazed and confused. It is a nice feeling to not feel a thing.
Maybe I just need to go to California coz I am young, don’t want to die yet, can't afford it maybe I just need to go to California swear that when I get old you'll blow all my brains out swear that when I get old you'll blow all my brains out
  You almost laughed at the lyrics. California honestly isn't that great and someone blowing your brains out doesnt sound too bad right about now. You set myself up for rejection you know but you couldn't help it at all. You know that your father would be heart broken if he saw you as you are right now but he isn't going to be home for weeks and by then you will be too far gone. What are you saying? He is the drummer for Black Veil Brides,  he is going to be furious. Ugh,  now the drugs are just making you feel bad. Guess it's time for more.
I don't understand how I can respect you when you're such a twat what you shocked at? it's a matter of fact
You rolled your eyes. Honestly that dickbag has lost all of your respect and you really don't want to have to face him at school tomorrow. He is going to try to act like everything is okay again and it's not. The damage had been done. You felt more tears falling down your cheeks and hastily wiped it away. It's so unfair. What do all of those other girls have that you don't? You were just as pretty if not prettier and he choses to stay with them.
And usually I would listen to you when my future's involved I got a responsibility to sit down and think what I should do shout 'Fuck him, Fuck her, and Fuck you too
  He used to try and help you with future plans and what to do after college. You guess that is all down the drain now. He isn't worth the time to even try to hamg around anymore. You gasped when the door opened. There stood your father. You quickly scrambled up trying to hide everything.
    "Y/N what's going on?!  Why did you cut yourself?!"
He asked panicked.
  You looked down ashamed. You didn't know what to say. He comes over and takes you into his arms.
    "Baby what's wrong? I can't fix it if you don't tell me what is happening."
He says. 
  You couldn't help but to break out in sobs.
    "I love him and he rejected me."
You whimper.
    "Oh honey. It's going to be okay. Let's get you cleaned up okay?"
He says.
  You nod quietly. He shuts off the music and gently picks me the cocaine throwing it into the waste bin. He didn't seem mad just disappointed. He took at wet bathcloth and cleaned the floor. He then got the first aid kit and had you sit on the edge of the bathtub. He gently started cleaning your cuts, apologizing when you wince. 
    "I thought that you were supposed to be on tour."
You say quietly, a few tears on your cheeks.
    "I had a gut feeling that something wasn't right and I made my way back to my baby. I had to check on you. Every since your mother died, you have been the only one that I have by my side besides the boys. I can't lose you."
He says.
  This makes you sob harder.
    "I'm so sorry that I did this. I didn't mean to. It just happened."
You say, wiping at your tears with your free hand.
    "Baby, it's okay to relaspe. You are going through a heartbreak. Now what do you say about getting some ice cream and watching movies until our flight back out to the boys tomorrow?"
He says.
   "Wait, I'm coming on tour with you? "
You ask.
    "Yep, its going to be just like old times before you started school. I talked to your teachers last week because I was actually going to surprise you for your birthday but it seemed to have moved up a bit. Anyways,  youre going to do your schooling online while you are on world tour with me and maybe you'll be able to forget about everything that happened here."
  You threw your arms around him being careful of the bandages.
    "Thank you so much dad. It means so much that you did all of this."
You say.