Broken Wings

Chapter 28

Two months ago I was about to die from sadness and here i am now wondering if anyone could ever die of excessive happiness .

Waking up happy means a lot to me , that moment when you wake up and before you open your eyes , you start remembering what happened to you the night before , and a small smile shows on your face , that's my favorite moment of the day . Surely my happiness is incomplete because the feeling of guilt has never left me since day one , but for the next 24 hours I decided to be happy and not to think about anything.

I have decided to tell Stacey everything . She's the closest person to me and she deserves to know . I am already expecting her reaction especially that she won't ever expect that such behavior will come out from me but I will tell her anyway.
I have to call her after school and tell her to come to my place , as for now I'll prepare myself for work . I've never felt that excited for my job . Nothing will affect my mood today , I told myself.

The town was all white , snow was covering everything . Some people think that winter is a depressing season but not for me , I love the sound of rain , the whiteness of the snow  especially when you're warm at home and outside is very cold.
On my way to work , Ben came on my mind , I haven't heard anything from him since we last talked , he didn't even replied at my message . Maybe it is for his best so he can totally forget about me . For me , our relationship was over long time ago.

The store was a bit busy , this time people are returning and exchanging their Christmas gifts . And this is the part I hate  the most in my job because customers will be most of the time complaining or inpatient.

I finished my shift at 2 , had some lunch at Panda Express next to my work and went straight to college .
I felt a bit disappointed when I checked my phone after work and saw  nothing from Alex , not a missed call nor a message ., maybe he's been really busy all day.

Just when was grabbing my phone to call Stacey  she called me .

" Hey Stace  ! Was about to call you I swear , what time are you coming to my place ?

" That's why I am calling , I won't be able to pass by this evening cause l am going with the class to visit Mr Alexander he had a car accident this morning , his car slipped on snow "

For a second I thought I was going to faint , my heartbeats got really fast and I had shortness of breath , car accident? Alexander ?? Is he okay?

" helloo?? Did you hear what I just said ?"

" Is he okay? " I tried my best to act normally.

" Oh yes , he did a leg surgery this afternoon that's what Drake has told me , hey why don't you come with us , I mean he was your teacher too ? "

Me , go ? A part of me wanted to go so badly and make sure that he's doing fine and another part is just scared . What if I saw his wife ? what if he told her anything about me ?

" okay , I have no idea what's happening to you , get ready I'll pick you up in 10 minutes."

Stacey  hang up without even giving me a chance to speak . She always does that and it was maybe a sign that I should go and see him .

I was so anxious while choosing my outfit, didn't know what to wear , I was about to have a panic attack . I mean what should I do ? How should wact? I picked a grey dress with black boots , a black scarf . Brushed my hair and put on some lipstick and left  .