affliction - tk.

TWENTY NINE.

dear, my beloved, secret admirer:

i was sixteen years of age when i first noticed your captivating face,

we barely conversed, although all i desired was to be in your embrace.

your messy, fluffy hair, which you changed up every two to three weeks,

sigh, why can't you notice that your adoration is all i seek?

there was a brief period of my life where i was convinced that you were labeled as mine,

it was a beautiful moment, as if all the stars had aligned.

but why did the stars choose to misalign all because of the presence of a dirty blonde?

it was evident that i was forgotten by you, once his presence made you grow fond.

my world gradually crumbled down as you left me in the dust,

i witnessed this person manipulate your innocent mind, full of disgust.

yes, you are entitled to be attracted to whoever you please,

but why must i struggle to steal your heart, while he earns it in a breeze?

it pained me knowing that he was the reason we had to part—

but that is insignificant to me, for you'll always be my dear sweetheart.

harsh as this may sound, but he's nothing more than an attention-seeking slut,

his feelings for you are non-existent, although this is just a skeptical feeling in my gut.

oh, lover, why has this sudden heartbreak caused such great affliction on me?

in a sense, it's as if i worked relentlessly for your love, while he received it for free.

to me, you're a drug in which i refuse to stop taking,

& this addictive, toxic drug causes my heart to continue aching.

if this is ever read by you, i assure you that no worries will enter your head,

for you will be far too preoccupied with buying me an engagement ring instead.

but first, before we achieve this destined goal,

the dirty blonde & i must switch roles.

i will do everything in my capability to make his world crumble down into tiny, little pieces,

& everything he cherishes will cease to exist, as my satisfaction slowly increases.

after he is nothing but ashes, it will finally be my moment, & like the sun, i will shine,

& most importantly, i will ultimately find a way to permanently make you mine.

yes, i know, you must be so swoon over that slut that all i appear to you as is a nobody,

but no worries, chanyeol...for i love you as you will love me.

- your sunshine ❂.