Double love part 2

Chapter twelve (12)

Hey guys!
I am so sorry i havent been able to update lately. School has been really annoying (as usual) and im failing everything🤦🏼‍♀️🙄
Its a school holiday thats why i can write otherwise my mom takes my phone away and before you ask, yes i can live without my phone.
Heres a new chapter of this story and thank you so much for reading up to now.:)
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Chapter twelve (12):
Do you love me?
(Roza and Marcus' chapter!!)
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*Roza's p.o.v*
I cant believe Martinus lost my notebook. That notebook has been with me for so many years and i never leave it. I write all my secrets and songs and everything in it.

*knock kncok knock*

Roza-"come in..."
I said.

I was sitting on my bed with my guitar. Roz got it for me on my last birthday. Its ruby red with silver strings.
I felt a presence behind me. Martinus is with Roz.
Mr. Gunnarsen is down by the lobby so you might guess who it is.

Roza-"Hey Mac."

Marcus came up and sat right next to me. He kept looking and staring at me as if waiting for me to do something.

Roza-"What...??"
I asked, surprised but quietly.

Mac-"Play me something."

I nodded. I took a deep breath and strummed the guitar for a brief start.
I didnt know what to play for him. But there is a song that really knows how i feel. It really knows who i am.

(A/N: roza agar this song isnt your song, sorry bas shtakm pe dada😅)

Loving and fighting
Accusing, uniting
I can't imagine a world with you gone
The joy and the chaos, the demons we're made of
I'd be so lost if you left me alone
You locked yourself in the bathroom
Lying on the floor when I break through
I pull you in to feel your heartbeat
Can you hear me screaming "please don't leave me"
Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life
Hold on, I still need you
A long endless highway, you're silent beside me
Drivin' a nightmare I can't escape from
Helplessly praying, the light isn't fadin'
Hiding in the shock and the chill in my bones
They took you away on a table
I pace back and forth as you lay still
I pull you in to feel your heartbeat
Can you hear me screaming, "please don't leave me"
Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
Let me take your hand, I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life
Hold on, I still need you
I don't wanna let go
I know I'm not that strong
I just wanna hear you
Saying baby, let's go home
Let's go home
Yeah, I just wanna take you home
Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you

After the song, i glanced over to Marcus. His eyes were wide open and his lips were parted.

Roza-"What?"
I said, waving my hand over his eyes so he'll come back to life.

Mac-"That-...was-...AMAZING!! Now i know why Gary chose you guys!"

I blushed.

Mac-"Why this song though? Is there a reason for it?"
He asked, curiosly.

Roza-"it feels me i guess. I am not good at talking with emotions but i can sing it."

Mac-"Wow, that was deep. Can i give it a try?"

I nodded and handed the guitar over to him. I didnt know he could play? Marcus took a deep breath and strummed the guitar.

You said
"Why am I holding on baby" (ooohh)
I would never back down
Are you walking out of my life
Saying you really don't love me (ooohh)
Baby you don't meen that
You remember all that we had
I took it from granted
That you loved me the same
But I gotta keep on talking
Listen to my heartbeat, beat, beat
Saying do you love me, me, me
But I'm lying here alone
So I put you in a song beside my
Heartbeat beat, beat
I know I haven't been the best lately (ooohh)
And I really know now
I should give you all my time (yeah)
You really do deserve better (ooohh)
Gotta get you somehow
Can we start over again now?
I took it for granted
That you loved me the same
But I gotta keep on talking
Listen to my heartbeat, beat, beat
Saying do you love me, me, me
But I'm lying here alone
So I put you in a song beside my
Heartbeat, beat, beat
Why am I holding on baby?
I would never back down
Are you walking out of my life? (mhmm)
So listen to my heartbeat, beat, beat
Saying do you love me
Oh, saying that you love me
But I'm lying here alone
So I put you in a song beside my
Heartbeat, beat, beat
Saying do you love me, me, me
But I'm lying here alone
So I put you in a song beside my
Heartbeat, beat, beat

I waited until it was over. I reallt understood the lyrics. I knew what it meant. The song i mean. This was Marcus' way of finding out if i still love him or not.

I havent really thought of it. Deep down of course i still love him. If you love someone like i did with marcus then you wont give up. That love will follow you to your grave. And for me, the love Marcus Gunnarsen once gave me will always be with me. Although i cant express it now because over time that feeling just got deeper. I lost it at the surface and it drowned.

Why did i go soft? What is wrong with me? Why did i change? I used to punch and fight people...for fun! Now i just want to cry!

Now i may say that i am not sure if i am in love with Marcus but deep down, the answer is 'yes'.

Deep down, i might still be in love with Marcus Gunnarsen.

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~Didi