This Gray, Unfortunate Place (2)

1 - Anything But a Smile

Lookin' around my room,

it feels so lonely without 

any kind of tune.

I don't like monotonous grooves,

but I need 

to fall asleep 

with the fan on.

Do you think 

the screaming

in my sleep

is a warning 

that we should heed? 

At first, this house seemed new,

and you seemed like somebody who 

would come to understand me 

and how I'm always operating. 

Just give it a few months-

You'll turn out to be another one 

who'll prove me the fool,

when I lose my cool,

and you walk away 

thinking all the same 

cliches that people have said 

about ex-boyfriends 

and how their worth nobody's time.

I guess frustration doesn't suit me,

I guess I'll have to be alright-

'guess I'm not allowed to feel

anything but a smile.