This Gray, Unfortunate Place (2)

21 - Cliques

This school is full of kids,

stuck in their cliques,

saying they don't belong anywhere

but doing nothing about it! 

We say we love the environment-

God damn it, 

I'll bleed red, white, and carbon!

The stuff in the air-

Is it making us go crazy?

They say college is a place

to begin your next phase of changing,

but all I see are kids-

A reflection of myself,

and I thought I was smarter than this,

but I'm so scared, can't you tell? 

Streets by the highway 

once gave me comfort,

but now they 

seem too expensive 

and the only future 

that I might have a shot at

is the digital screen 

that sits in front of me 

and says goodnight 

every night, like it already knows 

who I wanna be.