To the girl I led on-
I didn't.
I was scared, like drying paint
on the walls, fogging my mind.
Why?
Because going through the letters
I wrote for myself, and never sent her,
they tell me that I'm a fallibly,
young adult.
I didn't wanna burden her-
But now, I know,
that I've made it out
to be as though
I rejected her-
Made her seem like
she wasn't worthy
of a long-lasting guy
in her life,
and sometimes
sober, or not,
I miss the way
we held each other
like nothing else,
in this whole, stinkin',
bomb-droppin', gun-shootin'
world, could've ever
made more sense
than when
I was with her.
But, oh well, ya see?
'cause friends talk
and judge the boy
who doesn't walk the tightrope.
Her hair could put me to sleep,
and her preoccupations with writing
were so, so, so dignifying.
But if I tell her the honest truth,
I know that'll get me nothing
but the boot.
'cause, 'I didn't say it in time',
'cause, 'I should've been
more clear in my life',
'cause, 'she's moved on,
and now I'm just like
every other guy'.
'cause, 'now I'm the idiot
who gets to know what it feels like
to be rejected
for the millionth time'.
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This Gray, Unfortunate Place (2)
PoetryPoetry that straggles the heartstrings. (You don't have to have read the first book.)