This Gray, Unfortunate Place (2)

10 - Sorry for Existing

I said- 

It's not fair that

she expects me 

to be spontaneously 

asking of how 

she's doing, 

'cause -- ya know --

I love her so,

but I want her to 

express herself.

Let's make this shit 

about the things we desire-

How the stars in the sky

represent when we'll die.

This is where we came from,

from the outer realms,

but I still feel lonely.

I haven't seen her face

in a long time,

I'm wondering if she's still in plain-sight.

The girl with the voice

that used to annoy me

has since died-

Left me no condolences, 

'cause why would she?

I'm just a big bundle  

of some more trouble-

I'm sorry for everything.

I'm sorry for existing.