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Part 34 (The Confession)

A(crying) : Main jaanti hn ki ye ek bahut bada sach hai , aapne jis insaan ko itni shiddat se chaha tha usse maine...meri baduaon ne aapse cheen liya ! Bachpan se aapke baare main bahut possessive thi main lekin aapke liye iss had tak ghir jaungi ye nhn socha tha maine ! Maine...maine apni hi behen ke marne ki duaaien maangi ... na jaane kya kya kaha , thoda waqt deti mujhe jiji apne aapko sambhalne ka ... apne aap ko samjhaane ka ... apne iss junoon aur pagalpan ko door krne ka lekin nhn wo to chali gyi sab chodkar ... ek aansu .. ek aansu bhi nhi baha tha mera unki maut pr .. kis haq se roti! Meri jeene ki khwahish khatam ho gyi uss pal se! Apne aapse beintehaa nafrat hogyi mjhe! Ne..Neil aap kuch nhi bol rhe...boliye...maariye humein..jaan le lijiye humari humne aapse aapka sab cheen liya ! Hum aapke gunehgaar hai!! Aur mai; mai puri koshish krungi ki mjhe mere gunah ki saza mille! Infact mil rhi hai saza! Mai zinda hn lekin srf isliey kyuki meri sansein chal rhi wrna toh maine jeena kab ka chod diya! 
Neil aap kuch bol kyu nhi rhe hai??
(I know that this is a very big shock for you to take in!  The person you have loved so much I, my cursings snatched her away from you! My possessiveness regarding you since childhood has caused me to fall down so hard that I actually wished for my sisters death!  And she,  she didn't even give me time to become normal she left me and went away! She didn't give me a chance to get rid of my madness!  And you know what I didn't even shed a tear at her demise! After all whatever I had done I guess I had lost the right to even cry at her funeral! I hate myself to death now! I died that very day she left us! And now it's just that I am breathing! Neil why don't you say anything?  Please say something!?)

She shook him who was continuously looking down. He now looked into her eyes and Avni saw tears in them.

A : Kyun karte hai aap aise insaan ki itni parwaah bachpan se jisne aapko srf aur srf aansu diye badle mai ! nafrat kijiye mujhse ..har rishta tod lijiye mujhse...aap keh rhe the na ki mai aapko deserve nhn krti..galat ... bilkul galat ! Balki sach to ye hai aap mujh jaisi ladki ko deserve nhn krte jo apni behen ki bhi nhi Ho saki ... jo apni hi behen ki khushiyon se jal gyi ... Mere naseeb main kuch hai to wo hai sirf aur srf maut hai... ab aur kuch galat nhi hoga ... ye kissa aaj hi khatam krdeti hn mai !
(why have you cared for me so much since childhood?  You loved a person who has given you just these tears in return! You should hate me! And break all kind of bonds with me!  You were saying that I don't deserve you but the bitter truth is that you don't actually deserve a girl like me who got jealous of her sisters happiness!  I don't deserve anything in life! What I deserve is just death! Today I'll just finish off this story!)

She opened the door of the car and moved. Neil shocked at her behaviour hurried out to stop from taking any kind of wrong action. He pulled her arm and pinned her to the car!

N : bohot bol chuki ho tum ! Bas ab tum kuch nhn bologi ...Ab sirf main bolunga aur tum sunogi. (And he kept his hand on her mouth) Kisne keh diya tumse ki tumhare naseeb main khushiyaan nhi hai haan? Avni jo kuch bhi hua na usmein tumhare bhagwaan ki marzi chupi hui thi .. Juhi ki zindagi itni hi thi isliey wo chali gyi hum sabko chodkar , ismein tumhara koi qusoor nhi hai .. aur jo bhi hua use hum umar bhar leke nhi baith sakte hai ! Aur sach bolu toh yeh baatein mai phle hi jaan gya tha! Maine us din dadi aur Sanvi ko is baare mae baatein krte hue sun liya tha..
(you have said enough!  Now it's my turn you'll keep quiet and I'll speak!  (And he kept his hand on her mouth) who told you that you don't deserve happiness?  Whatever happened was God's will! Her span of living was this much only, that is why she left us it was never your fault! We cannot sit holding onto things that happened in the past! And to be honest I got to know the truth sometime back!  I had heard sanvi and dadi talking once!)

Juhi ka waqt pura hogya tha isliey woh aaj hum sab ke beech nhi hai ! Har insaan ki ek zindagi hoti hai jo bhagwan phle se plan krke rkhta hai... aur har ek kahani ka ek kissa hota hai, waise hi Avni yeh kahani kbhi meri aur Juhi ki thi hi nhi yeh kahani teri aur meri thi! Jiska Juhi srf ek chota sa hissa hai! Mai jaanta hn ki maine bohot waqt zaaya krdiya hai, magar ab aur nhi!
(juhi's life was till that much only! So she isn't with us anymore! Everyone has one life which is pre-planned by God!  And every story has a certain part. Just that Way Avni this story was never mine and ishana's it was always about you and me! I know I have wasted way too much time in realizing the truth!  But now not anymore!)

Woh chand dekh rhi ho! (He pointed towards the moon and Avni nodded ) Kitni tanhayi mae duba hai lekin phr bhi dusro ki zindagiyon ko roshan krta hai ! Tumne bhi apna gam chupakar humesha Juhi aur meri khushi hi chahi hai ! Humari zindagiyon ko khud andhere main rehkar roshan kiya hai ... Tumne kuch galat nhi kiya hai Avni ! Galati toh meri hai jo mjhe ehsas tak nhi hua ki meri bawli bhatak gyi hai! Andhera aur tanhayi mae dub rhi hai! Kitna kharab dost hn mai jo teri awaz tak nhi pohochi mjh tak!
Mjhe kbhi ehsas tak nhi hua ki jis pyar ko mai dosti ka naam deta aaya hn woh meri zindagi hai; humare umar ke farq ne mjhe andha krdiya tha aur mai Ishana ko psnd krta tha isliey uske love proposal ko accept krliya tha! Lekin jab jab tjhe taqleef pohochi hai tab tab bin roye bhi tere aansu bahein hai par meri ankhon se!
(look at the moon there! (He pointed towards the moon and Avni nodded ) how lonely does it seem to be, but still it makes sure to lighten up others life! Just like the moon till today you were hiding your pain and lighting my and ishanas life! You were never wrong! Infact it was all my fault, I never realised that my bawli was drowning in loneliness and darkness! What bad a friend have I been, your voice couldn't reach me! How could I not ever get that the love I was claiming to be friendship is my life! The gap in our age had got be blind. And somewhere I did like ishana as a person so I had accepted her love proposal! But whenever you have been hurt in life it has always happened that even without crying tears have flown down eyes! But those have been my eyes! )

A - Lekin meri wajah se jiji..... (Avni began to say)
(but because of me my sister!(Avni began to say))

N - Shhh...tumhe bolne ki ijazat abhi tak nhn di hai maine ! Itne saalon tak tum apne andar itna barha bhawandar chupa kar baithi rhi aur mujhe pta nhn chala..tum kyun chup rhi uss waqt .. aakar ladti mujhse...apne pyaar ka izhaar krti mujhse...do thappad lga deti lekin itne saalon tak apne andar itne dard ko chupaane ki kya zarurat thi tumhe pagli ! ( He sighs ) Pata nhi kyu aur kaise maine us liking ko pyar ka naam de diya tha! Juhi ke saath rehkar mjhe uski aadat toh hogyi thi par sacha pyar toh kisi aur se phle hi kar chuka tha mai! Pagal... bilkul pagal tha mai! Kaise nhi smjh paya ki kaise tere har aansu par taqleef mjhe hoti hai... kaise tjhse judi har cheez mere liye mera sab kuch ban gya ! Lekin shayad maine apne dil aur dimag ke beech ki jung mae apne dil ko hara diya aur apne dimag ki sunni! Avni agar mai tere liye jo feel krta hn, jo mehsoos krta hn agar usse pyar kehte hai! Toh haan mai tjhse pyaar krta hn! "Beinteha ishq hai mjhe tjhse" ! Meri dunya tjhse hi shuru aur tjhpar hi khtm hoti hai! Har pal mere dillon dimag mae srf tuh hi bassi rhti hai! Aaj Vidyut ki baaton ne meri ankhein kholdi hai! Mere andar ke soye huye us pagal aashiq ko jaga diya hai! Bohot pyaar krta hn mai tjhse, aur mai jaanta hn ki tuh khudko Juhi ka qaatil maanti hai isliey tuh mjhe nhi apnayegi lekin Avni Tum maano ya naa maano lekin aaj se ye shaadi mere liye meri zindagi hai...mera sab kuch hai...aaj se tum meri beewi ho..aur meri har cheez pr tumhara haq hai...meri aakhiri saans pr bhi sirf tumhara haq hai ! He declared
(Shh...  Who gave you the right to speak I am still not done! You remained with this huge storm going on inside you! Why were you quite then? you should have come and told me,  opened your heart infront of me or even slapped me and things would have been fine but no you kept on suffering all these years my pagli! ( He sighs ) don't why and how I thought that small infatuation and liking to be love! Mad, I was such a big mad! How could I not understand that with each of your tears I have been so hurt ! That how everything that is close to you is important for me! And if what all I feel for you is love then Avni I truly love you! "Avni I love you with all my heart "! My life begins with you and ends with you only! It's you who rules my heart and mind! Today Shivay's words have truly opened my eyes! I love you so much and I know that just because you think that you are Juhi's murderer you won't accept me! You agree or not but since today thus marriage is my life! You are my wife! All that is mine belings to you ! And i'll live for you till my last breath)

Avni tumhe apni zindagi ko apne pyaar ko ek naya mauka dena hoga , tumhe aage badhna hoga ! Shayad juhi ka aana bas humari zindagi ka ek chota sa kissa tha! Aur woh kissaa bina kisi shaq ke bohot haseen tha! Magar woh hissa bhi humari zindagi mae pyar ke rang ko aur gehra karne ke liye juda tha ... He explains her
(you should give your love atleast a chance in life! You will have to move on... I guess juhi's coming into our life was just a small part of this story of ours! And that part no doubt was absolutely beautiful! But that portion was added to just actually deepen the colour of our love... He explained!)

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