"Is it utterly pathetic that I've been in love with the same person for oh I don't know the last seventy years."
"Nah It's poetic."
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We won the war but the price for some was too great, including me. In the space of a couple of weeks, I had lost my brother, my other half and my best friend, the love of my life. I was alive in body but not in spirit and so, so alone, even after a year the pain of losing my boys hadn't subsided.
I was lucky though because I had both Peggy and Howard and now a friend of Howard's named Edwin Jarvis all supporting me, some people had no one.
I had left the army once Steve died, I tried to carry in like normal which I did to an extent, I had my good days and my bad days. So instead I had gotten a job in a diner, it paid the bills on the house that I hadn't left and enough for food but none for luxuries. Howard offered to help several times but I always decline, I just wanted to live every day as it came, the same routine every day until one day it got destroyed.
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"Steve, Steve please Steve" he was standing in front bloody and bruised, he was so close but every step I took to get to him he moved further and further away, I started running after him but tripped on nothing and feel to the floor "Steve" I hit the floor in frustration but stopped when I felt a hand on my shoulder, I looked up tears rolling down my cheeks to see James standing there, he was sickly pale, his eyes sunken, he had deep cuts with blood trickling out all over his face . "James."
"This is your fault" he hissed at me through gritted teeth "my blood is on your hands."
"No James, please" I reached out to grab him, he didn't stop me I stopped myself when I saw my hands soaked in blood, somehow I knew it was his blood. "I, I didn't-"
My eyes blinked open, I frantically looked around the room the images of the dream still fresh but once I realised I was alone I calmed, sunlight was streaming through the curtains so at least I slept through until morning "remember it was just a dream" I mumbled "just a dream" I threw the bed covers off me and headed to the bathroom, splashing cold water over my face it helped me wake up. I left the bathroom to check the time making sure I hadn't overslept for my shift, thankfully I had an hour and a half so I had time to shower and get changed into my uniform and applied makeup without being into a massive rush, I grabbed an apple from the kitchen and left.
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Work was quiet when I walked in, it was half hour after opening and there were only three customers here all of which had been served, "morning Ange" I said to my favourite colleague, she also knew about what had happened to James and always offered a shoulder to cry on.
"Morning Barnes. How you doin today?"
"I'm fine" I replied not looking at her as I did my apron up.
"You know I don't get why you stay in that house of yours all alone," she said wiping down the counter where the till was."Hey, there's a place that's just become available in my block. You should totally love in, we'd be neighbours."
