On The Run

Chapter 19

Chapter 19

Later that night, Juice and I head to the dorm. Climbing into bed, I think about what Venus said about replacing that feeling with something else. I lean up and kiss him softly and he deepens the kiss. Hovering over me, we just lay there kissing. He doesn't push me farther, just letting me take the lead. "Love me Juan Carlos." I whisper. We start to shed clothes and he enters me slowly. Making love to me slowly and passionately and it's unlike anything I've ever felt. We are both pouring our heart and soul into it and I feel that connection that I need so much. Once we both reach our release, he lays his head on my chest and I run my nails lightly over his tats. "I love you Liv." Juice says. "I love you more. I really don't know how you put up with all of this." I tell him. He raises his head up to look at me and says "That shit ain't your fault. We'll get through it. Baby, you have no clue how much I love you. When I was at my lowest, you were there." he says. When I don't say anything, he elaborates. "Remember when we were thrown together? I didn't tell you everything. You knew about the club and the nightmares but what you didn't know was that before Alvarez put us together, I was trying to figure out how to kill myself. I wanted to die. I had nothing left. Then, when we were thrown together, seeing how bad you needed someone, being the one there for you, it made me feel like I was needed. Made me feel like I wasn't completely worthless." he tells me. "I didn't know that." I tell him. "I didn't want you to know. You were dealing with shit worse than what I was." he tells me. "How do I get past this Juice?" I ask as a tear slips down my cheek. "We get through it one day at a time. But no matter what, I'm not going anywhere." he tells me. We snuggle back up together and fall into a peaceful sleep and this time, no nightmares.

Waking up the next morning, Juice is gone. I get up and dressed and head out to the main room and see him sitting at the bar with a cup of coffee. "Morning babe." He says as I sit next to him and TO puts a cup of coffee in front of me. "Morning baby. Morning TO." I say and TO say "Morning Liv. How are you feeling this morning?" he asks. "Better. Thanks." I tell him as I drink my coffee. "TO brought up something to me this morning. What would you say to getting a dog?" he ask. "A dog?" I ask confused. "When my sister was younger, she was attacked. Her shrink said get her a dog. It gave her something to concentrate on and took her mind off of her attack. Kinda helped her process shit better." TO says. I look at Juice and I say "Can we?" He nods and I kiss him softly.

A little later, Happy and Kali come out of the dorm and Kali sits next to me. "We'll go after we finish our coffee." Juice says. "Go where?" Happy asks. "Getting Liv a dog. Think it might help with the nightmares and shit. TO suggested it." Juice says. "You think it might work?" Happy asks. "Willing to give it a try." Juice says. "Mind if we tag along? Might help Kali too." Happy says. "Yeah. She can ride with me." I tell him and he nods.

An hour later, we are at the local shelter. Looking at the dogs, I see a German Shepard puppy. "What about this one?" I ask the lady working. "He's three months old. Been here about a month. Real affectionate. Knows a couple of commands." she tells me. "What's his name?" I ask. "Kane." she tells me. "What do you think babe?" Juice asks. "I want him." I say. The worker opens the cage and he comes right to me and sits in front of me and puts his head on my knee. I pat the top of his head and Juice says "Didn't even jump on you." I smile and say "That's a good boy." He licks my hand and I pick him up to carry him to the front. We meet up with Happy and Kali and she has a small red pit puppy named Ginger. We head out to my car and Juice says "Follow us to the pet store and we'll get what they need. By the time we get to the clubhouse, we have beds for both dogs for our houses and the dorms, food and water bowls for both and toys for both. Getting out of the car, I have Kane on a leash and when we walk inside, he sits at my feet and just watches everything around us. "Looks like you got yourself a little guard dog." Tig says as he walks up. Kane stands and growls and I say "Kane, sit." He stops growling and sits like I commanded. Tig let's Kane smell his hand before coming over and kissing my cheek. "Good boy." Tig says as he pats Kane's head and I look at Juice, smiling.