Enigma: A JenLisa One-shot Compilation

Your Last (4)

I still clearly remember all our memories; from the day we met, to the hospital moments, and when she decided to let me stay in her house where our love was made up to the day she said yes to me and we built our family together.

Too bad her lifetime with me only lasted for 5 years. Just when I decided to continue my life because of her, she was already taken away from me. It's ironic how I hated to live my life but when I met her, all of that changed; all because of her.

But now she's gone. I was so devastated that I even attempted to kill myself in the hospital when the doctor said that she's gone. She didn't made it.

Only if I didn't allow her to get pregnant, maybe she's still here with me. 

Maybe if she's still alive, we already went to our favorite places and create memories together.

I was mad at everyone. My hatred to myself came back and I suddenly want to end my life now since my Jennie is gone. I want to be with her now.

I questioned the gods above. I hated them. I hated how they let us meet when they will just take her away from me.

I hated how they played with our feelings.

I hated how they let my Jennie died.

And I hated how my fate wont let me be happy.

"Jennie! Why did you leave me?! Jennie, come back! We still didn't visit Paris. Come back please." I was hugging her hospital pillow and her clothes as I cried and scream loudly.

"Why?! What did I do to deserve this pain?! If you wouldn't let us be together for a long time, you shouldn't have let us meet in the first place!" I was looking above. My vision slowly becomes blurry.

"Jennie, I love you." Is the last word I said and everything went black.

I wake up in an unfamiliar room and I realized I was at the hospital. It wasnt a dream. Jennie's gone,forever. Tears are already forming in my eyes when the door opened, revealing a nurse with a baby on her hands.

"Here's your healthy baby girl, Mrs. Kim Manoban. I'm sorry for your lost. I know everything's happening for a reason. Please be strong for your baby." The nurse said as she hand me our baby.

I can't even look at this baby.

'Jen, if this is the price of what's happening, Jen come back to me. I can't live without you.'

When I accidentally looked at the baby I was holding, I suddenly felt guilty of what I said earlier. She really looks like her. All of the pain inside turned into joy as I realized Jennie didnt leave me at all. She's still here, with me, us.

"I'll take care of you." I wiped my tears and kiss the infant.

'Jen, guide me as I raise our child.'

"Why are you crying momma?" My 4 year old Jeli asked and wiped my tears.

"I just remembered your mommy, mandu. You really look like her." I smiled.

"You said that I million times momma. I wish mommy is here with us."

"I also wish the same, princess." I caress her chubby face and I tried to smile at her.

"Mommy told me to take care of you so from now on momma, we'll take care of each other." I was shocked at what she said.

"I dreamt about her last night and she hugged me really tight and I asked her if we could go with her but she said it's not the right time. And for the meantime, we'll take care of each other momma." I burst into tears on what I heard. Jennie's still here in my heart and no one can replace her.

"Mommy told me to tell you that she really loves you. You are her first and great love, momma. And she's really grateful because she met you and she became part of your life."

"When mommy will visit you in your dream, please tell mommy that I love her more than anything else in this world. You two are my greatest possession. I love you both with all of my heart. I'll never forget how she made me happy."

Life taught me that everything can disappear in a blink of an eye,whether it's important to you or not, if it's not meant to stay longer, it won't. So learn to appreciate and make every moment worth remembering and live your life with your someone special, as if it's your last. 

A/n: Those who are written in italic are flashbacks of what happened. I hope you didn't have a hard time understanding it.