Rosé's POV
As soon as we step our foot outside the huge room, Unnie grab my hand and pulled me towards the elevator, she then press the rooftop button here at the hotel where the reception was being held. I squeezed her hand and she leaned her head on my shoulder. I know Jisoo-Unnie will understand it why we're not there, I just want to comfort her now. She's really sensitive when it comes to her mother, especially that she's with her new family. Good thing the elevator goes up straight without anyone entering it, or else it'll be hard to silence those people who squealed when they met me in person. I mean I love my fans and all but I don't think now is the right time, especially that I'm with Unnie who doesn't like loud people and all. There's only a few person who she can tolerate the loudness-- Jisoo-Unnie, Me, Nayeon-Unnie, and the new recruit, Lalisa. I smiled when I imagine Jennie-Unnie's reaction if the four of us, Jisoo-Unnie, Nayeon-Unnie, Lisa and I, will be in the same room with her, how will she handle our loudness? I'm sure she wouldn't hesitate to throw us the thing she first get ahold of. I heard the elevator dings indicating that we already arrived. We step out of it and I was welcomed by a very quiet surrounding, this is what she wanted right now, a quiet space. She let go of my hand and walk towards the railings, she leaned on it and just stared at the colourful city lights of Seoul. I followed suit and stand beside her, she's really quiet, not like before, she used to be so talkative when were still kids but everything has change. The usually happy Jennie became loner, she's so isolated now that's why me and Jisoo-Unnie are the ones who always visit her despite of our busy schedules.
"Chaeyoung-ah." she called out, and I almost cringe because she barely call me by my Korean name.
"Wae?" I ask nonetheless.
"I hate her." she said and I immediately understand who she's talking about. I stayed quiet and let her talk.
"Why do I have to be nice to them? I hated it whenever I was being forced to greet them with my stupid fake smile. I hated it whenever I need to act like I'm okay when the truth is I'm not. I hated it seeing them complete and happy while I'm still trying to move on. I hate myself because it's been so long already yet I couldn't accept the fact that I can't have a complete and a happy family. I hate it. I wish I could just disappear." she said, my eyes went wide on her last sentence. What does she meant by that?! Disappear?
"Yah, what disappear are you talking about?"
"I said a lot of things and that's the only response I'll get from you?" she look at me with those boring eyes of her.
"Don't think about stupid things Unnie." I pouted.
"What kind of stupid things Roseanne? Be specific."
"The one you said a while ago. Disappear? Are you planning to cut your life?" I ask and bit my lip to stop myself from crying, just the thought of her leaving me is killing me also.
"What are you talking about? I wasn't thinking about that, pabo." she said and shook her head, I felt the tears that threatening to fall down earlier came back to its sack.
"What I mean is, I want to unwind. But I can't because I have a lot of responsibilities in the company." she said and heave a sigh.
"Oh, really?" is all I could mutter.
"Yes, really. So stop over thinking things. I won't end my life, it won't solve my problems. And my life is too precious, the whole world will mourne, that's for sure." she said that made me roll my eyes against the cold air. I think she's okay now, she's back from her normal self again.
"Oh wow, too much confidence." I said that cause her to laugh a little.
"Yah, but seriously, I won't do that. That's bad." she said and hug me sideways. "And I know that you'll gone crazy if I leave you in this cruel world." she added. I shook my head before leaning it above hers.
