tackled ? || chris evans

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wARNING: FUCK FUCKFUCK IM DEAD
also comment/vote if you hate me for this chapter XD
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big chris
astrid
ast
babe
baby
fuck what happened?
are you okay?

smol ast
christopher
chris
babe
baby
it's nothing
im okay

big chris
you fucking scared me
what the hell happened out there ?

smol ast
you know, the typical
got smashed
tore my acl
like for the third/ fourth time

big chris
astrid taylor maynard
that is not okay

smol ast
oh i forgot
can't play rugby anymore too:)

big chris
15 hours
i'll be there

smol ast
no, baby it's okay
im good, i swear

big chris
no you are not

smol ast
you don't have to come here, c

big chris
if my girlfriend is stuck in the hospital for the next few days and i'm 15 hours away
im not gonna stay here, ast

smol ast
i've been through this way too many times
i'll be fine, chris

big chris
you aren't changing my mind
rugby is your sport, and it's your life.
ast, i dont know what the hell you're gonna do without it

smol ast
i'll live
move to la
get a cute place beside the new gym
rugby isnt that big in usa
i'll get through it

big chris
in the future
sure, yeah
we're talking about now, astrid
you're acting like leaving rugby isn't a big deal

smol ast
you think i have a choice?
you think i chose to leave rugby?
i just got selected as the national team captain, how the fucking hell do you think i feel?
it's been my life since i was a kid
sure yes, knowing that i can't put on the jersey and play for my country feels like crap
because i worked my ass off for it
but guess what? sometimes things dont go the way you want it to

big chris
astrid,

smol ast
so i deeply apologise, christopher robert evans, that i am not showing how completely utterly disappointed i feel in myself
because sometimes pretending everything is fine is the easier way to cope
and maybe pretending that i didn't just lose a key part of my life, helps too

big chris
and you're gonna push me away?
keep the people who are worried sick about you in the dark?
jeremy, ariana, your siblings, sebastian, robert?
me?

smol ast
yes,
because they will never understand
you will never understand

big chris
you don't have to go through this alone

smol ast
i dont have to
but i will

chris
we'll talk about this soon alright?

ast
don't bother, evans

chris
come on,
seen
astrid
seen
astrid please
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