2 weeks || ryden

[6.2]

     "r-ryan?" my eyes widened, feeling nervous and filled with guilt and regret.

     ryan stood there and stared at me with a shocked expression.

     he's still gonna be quiet and not talk to me even after all this time.

     it hurts.

     it really hurts.

     i continued looking at him as if i was going to get a response.

     "what? are you guys gonna make out or something? are you guys-"

     "shut up brent." i muttered.

     "what was that? didn't hear you." he smirked.

     "i said shut the fuck up brent." i practically shouted, vision blurred and voice cracking.

     "brendon... are you-"

     "you too, dallon."

     "what? is the baby gonna cry? coward."

     i saw tyler look up at us.

     god it fucking hurts.

     "go away, ross." spencer spoke. "no, i think he should stay, don't you think?" brent smirked. ryan stood still with the same expression as before.

     he's really not going to say anything.

     he really doesn't want anything to do with me.

     my heart feels so heavy and i feel sick.

     "brent, why don't you fuck off?" i sniffled and wiped away tears. "i'm not gonna take orders from a child." brent rolled his eyes. "go. away." i said. "i don't feel like it, do you ryan?" brent looked over to ryan, still frozen in his position.

     i felt my legs go weak and my hands start to shake.

     "brendon-"

     i ignored what spencer was trying to say and rushed to the bathroom. i ran into a stall, slammed the door and then locked it.

     and there i sat, sitting in the corner of the stall in a ball and sobbing.

     everything hurts.

     the bell rang, yet i stayed.

     i didn't care. it hurts too much.

     he still wants nothing to do with me, and i miss him so much.

     i thought i was over him.

     fuck you, ryan. fuck you.

     it hurts so fucking much.