I walk downstairs and go back to the living room. I see all of them cleaning up the mess Tom made. I grab a broom that's against the wall and start sweeping the glass. After a couple of moments of silence, I speak up.
"Has he done this before?", I ask,
"Yeah... many times.", Steve says,
"But this time was one of the bad ones.", Zach says,
"What made him do this?", I ask and sweep the glass into a garbage bag,
"He just kept yelling that his parents are getting a divorce. I don't understand why because they were always so happy together. Tom never really had a close relationship with his parents especially his dad after his brother died. I just feel like this was his breaking point because his whole family is falling apart.", Nick says and picks up a chair and I stay silent,
"Does he have panic attacks often?", I ask,
"Sometimes, but only when he gets really upset or worked up.", Gabe says,
"I'm still shocked that you calmed him down though. He always needs his inhaler. Ever since I've known him he has not used his inhaler when he has one.", Nick says,
"Oh...maybe it was just a coincidence or something.", I say. They shrug there shoulders and go back to cleaning. After another couple of minutes, I decided I should probably go back upstairs. I grab Tom's phone and I get him a bottle of water. I walk past the living room, but Nick stops me,
"Hey Y/n?", he says,
"Yeah?", I say and turn around to face him,
"Thanks...for everything.", he says. I look at him and give him a small smile and nod my head. He smiles back and I turn around to go back upstairs. I go to Toms room and when I open his door I see him shirtless under the covers asleep. I walk over and set all of his things on the side table. I look at him and I smile. I run my hand across his cheek and I turn the lamp off. I'm about to walk away, but I jump a little when I feel him grab my hand.
"Stay the night please.... my shirt is on the dresser.", he mumbles quietly with his eyes still closed. I think about it and I give in. I'll just get up early in the morning and drive back to my dorm so I can get ready for my classes. I walk over to his dresser and grab his shirt. I get undressed and pull his shirt over my head quickly. I fold my clothes and set them on the dresser. I walk over to his bed and move the covers over so I can get in. Before I can even lay down he grabs me and pulls me towards him. We're face to face and he holds my waist,
"Thank you.", he mumbles,
"Just go to sleep.", I say softly. I run my hands through his hair and I feel him relax. Not soon later he falls asleep.
My alarm goes off at 5:40 and I reach over and turn it off. I rub my eyes and then look over my shoulder at Tom. His arm is around my waist and he's sound asleep. I carefully take his arm and slowly lift it up. When I finally have it lifted enough I carefully get out of the bed. I set Tom's arm down on the spot where I just was and make sure he's still asleep. When I'm sure he didn't wake up I go over to the dresser and grab my clothes. I slip my leggings on and then take Tom's shirt off and replace it with my hoodie. I fold the shirt and put it back on the dresser. I grab my shoes and sit down and put them on. After I'm done It's about 5:47. I walk over and grab my phone off the nightstand. I was about to walk away, but I should probably tell Tom I'm leaving. I don't want him getting mad at me. I bend down and shake his shoulder lightly.
"Tom.", I whisper and after a moment he responds,
"Hm.", he says into his pillow,
"I'm leaving. I put your shirt on the dresser.", I say softly,
"No.", he mumbles,
"Tom I have to-", but he interrupts me by pulling me back down on the bed. He holds my waist and nuzzles his head into my neck,
"Tom I have to go.", I laugh. He shakes his head and then gets up and supports himself with his arms so he's hovering over me,
"You're not leaving.", he says and looks at me,
"Why not?", I joke and pout,
"Because I said so.", he says and kisses my nose. I giggle and look up at him. Even though it's dark I can still see his eyes staring into mine.
We stay like this in silence just staring at each other for a couple of moments. I see him start to duck down and right before our lips are about touch I clear my throat and turn my head to the side. His lips touch my cheek and he pulls away with a frown on his face.
"I should probably go...", I say quietly and look back at him. I see him staring at me for a moment and then he clenches his jaw. He rolls off of me and lays back down facing the other way,
"Tom?", I say and try to touch his shoulder, but he jerks away,
"Y/n you need to go. I'm tired and I want to sleep.", he says flatly. I was going to respond, but I decide not to. I slowly get up off the bed and walk towards the door. I open the door and before I close it I look back at Tom. He's still lying on his side staring at the wall. I sigh and close the door to his bedroom.
I rush back to the dorms and when I get up to my room it's about 6:10. I make sure I'm quiet when I open the door because I know Lily is still going to be asleep. I carefully set my keys down and walk-in. I walk over to my dresser to grab some new clothes for the day and I hear Lily move in her bed.
"Y/n?", she asks and rubs her eyes,
"Hey sorry. Go back to sleep it's still early.", I whisper,
"Where were you last night?", she mumbles,
"I...had some stuff to take care of.", I say,
"Hm... I have a question.", she says and hugs her pillow,
"Yeah?",
"Me, Troy, and Cassidy are going to the dinner again tonight. Do you want to come?",
"Is Tom gonna be there?", I ask,
"I don't know. Sometimes he shows up and sometimes he doesn't. I doubt it though. I do know Allison won't be there. There's a party at a frat tonight. And most likely Tom will go with her.", she says and I can tell she's slowly falling back to sleep. But I feel my chest ache at the mention of Tom and Allison going to a party together. Who even has a party on a Tuesday night?
"Sure I'll come.", I say. The only reason I said yes was that Tom might not be there. I know he's already mad at me from earlier and I just hope he won't be there because I don't want him to be a total jerk to me,
"Yay.", she says tiredly,
"Go back to sleep. I'll wake you up when it's time to go.", I tell her,
"Okay.", she yawns and turns the other way. I smile and go to the bathroom with my clothes to take a shower.
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𝑰𝒏𝒕𝒐𝒙𝒊𝒄𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 - 𝐓𝐨𝐦 𝐇𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐝 {𝟏} (𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐞)
FanfictionIntoxicating is about a 19 year old girl named Y/n. She is a freshman in college and she wants to pursue her passion in becoming a writer. The only friend she finds when she first moves in is her roommate. Her name is Lily. Lily is a girl who likes...
