𝑰𝒏𝒕𝒐𝒙𝒊𝒄𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒏𝒈 - 𝐓𝐨𝐦 𝐇𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐝 {𝟏} (𝐂𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐞)

Part 48

As I parked a little down the street from the house you could already feel the bass of the music vibrating throughout your body. I've put my phone on silent because I don't want anything or anyone to stop me. I'm sick and tired of Allison's little games. As I walk up closer to the house, a feeling in my stomach starts to rise and I start to question my decision, but I don't stop walking I keep going forward. As I walk up to the front, there's people left and right drunk out of their minds. I have to push past two people making out just in order to get into the packed house. As I get deeper into the house the more I want to go back. Just as I'm about to turn around to leave I feel and hand grab my wrist and gently pull me to the side. I'm startled at first, but once I see who it is I tense a little bit,

"I uh...hi.", I say loud enough for him to hear over the music,

"Why are you here?", Nathan asks as I scan the room trying to avoid eye contact with him, but also looking for Allison,

"I'm looking for someone.", I tell him,

"Well I just want to talk to you for like two seconds.", he says and my head snaps back over to look at him. I bite my bottom lip deciding if I should go with him or continue to look for Allison,

"Fine, but quickly.", I say and I see the relief wash over him. He indicates with his hand to follow him and I do as he leads me through the crowd of people. He goes out the back door and onto the patio where it's a little quieter,

"I just wanted to say that I'm very, very sorry about what happened.", he says,

"No Nathan-", I start but he shakes his head no and interrupts me,

"No just hear me out. I don't know what I was thinking, I shouldn't of let you drink that much. I just got caught up in the moment so much that I didn't think, so I'm sorry.", he says, with sympathy in his eyes,

"Nathan, it's not totally your fault, it's mine too. I agreed to have another drink when you asked me, I should've watched myself.", I tell him,

"Y/n, I don't want you taking the blame for this. All of that was my fault, I was the one who gave you them, I should've told you no. And I know Tom is probably really fucking pissed at me, but could you just tell him it's my fault and I'm sorry, because I know there's no way in hell he'll ever speak to me.", he says. I sigh and nod my head,

"Yes, but just know that it's not all your fault, okay? Even if you think I'm wrong.", I say to him. He nods his head and gives me a small smile. I look back into the house at all the people then back at him,

"I really need to go.", I say, feeling bad for leaving him,

"Yeah, yeah. Just thanks for letting me explain.", he says,

"Of course. I'll see you around.", I say and give him a slight smile. He presses his lips into a thin line and looks down at his cup in his hand. 

I go back into the house and scan every single person to see if I spot her. When I'm disappointed I walk further into the crowd of people. I go to the living room and when I see the back of her head sitting on the couch with a bunch of dudes, my hands clench into fists at my sides. I make my way over there and when she sees me, she raises her eyebrow and looks at me with amusement, then looks over at Kaden next to her,

"Well look who it is.", she says as I walk up to stand in front of her,

"I need to speak with you.", I say,

"Yeah, that's not gonna happen, sorry.", she says flatly and turns her head to talk to Kaden,

"Now.", I say a little more sternly not even trying to be kind.