Cotton Candy // L.H

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' Faking a smile is so much easier than explaining why you're sad '

Addie's pov

I'm not sure what this feeling is. I don't think I'm depressed, I mean... I'm not sad, but I'm not exactly happy. I can laugh, smile and joke around in the day, but sometimes at night, I forget how to feel. I'm consumed with overwhelming thoughts of how if I died tonight, the world would carry on, the stars would keep appearing every night, the sun would keep shinning on in the day and people would be oblivious to the suffering of teenagers all over the world.

My mind conflicts itself. One second I think about dying, but the next I'm thinking; life's too short to spend each day at war with yourself. Make it count, don't take notice of what others think.

Do what the hell you want to. It's your life. You get to decide.

Whether it's down to the friends you chose, the colour of your hair, piercings, tattoos, your career.

Some people don't understand that if you're old enough to chose you're career at the age of 17, you're old enough to make the decision of dyeing your hair.

Anyway. My names Addie and I cry a lot, i hate on myself, i drink too much coffee, i'm afraid of things, i get panic attacks, i sit in the shower for hours. But i can love so deep,to the point of madness...

A/n: I chose the name Addie because in urban dictionary it means:

A awesomly beautiful girl who has gorgeous eyes with a lovely personality. a very unique awesome name A very smart, sweet girl with lots of things on her mind. She may seem distracted a lot and that's because she is most of the time. Very creative and sometimes shy, she always has to have music on. silence is her only weakness. She doesn't think she's attractive but in reality she's the most gorgeous thing you'll ever meet. often spaces out when near windows. always contemplating something. very pale and doesn't care. easy to get along with. everyone loves her. stands up for her friends and would never hurt anyone intentionally. picks the wrong crowd. not easily influenced. has soo much planned for her. remember her, she'll be widely known soon. if you fall in love with addie don't ever let her go. she likes playfighting. looks like the most innocent person alive but can be the sexiest, kinky little thing if you get her to that stage. likes being pushed to do better.

And that's what my character basically is.