Assassins' Strip Club [Ereri/Riren AU] ✓

Chapter 55.50

Assassins' Strip Club
Chapter 55.50
Charlie

I stare aimlessly at the incubator with my potential child in it. It's stressful. Nothing about this is calm and easy. There isn't anything about this process that I originally planned when I pictured having a child.

Nothing about this is as easy as it would've been with Ethan.

With Ethan, we would have run away. We would have grabbed Ryder and Xander and we all would have lived on a farm. We would have gotten a dog and it would've been our child's best friend.

Having a kid without Ethan in the equation is hard and nothing about this is what I originally would have wanted, but I do want it now. I want Halt. I want Alexander. I want our child. It's just hard to do things without him.

"Ethan," I say quietly, twirling the ring on my finger, "I miss you, but I'm doing okay. I wish you could meet them. Halt and Zex are amazing and they take really good care of me. We take care of each other. Halt is really kind and he's been staying with me so that I'm never alone with Erwin. He has pretty, hazel eyes with flecks of gold in them. His hair is brown and fun to play with. Alexander is really strong and I trust him, like Halt, with my life. He has really cool eyes. Half of his iris is gray and the other half is blue. His hair is also really nice. It's black, but sometimes, I think it's blue. He looks like a scary badass, but he's my squishy man."

I wipe my eyes, giggling sadly. "We'd all be a force to be reckoned with, that's for sure." A tear hits the ring. "He's going to be gone soon, Erwin. Eren's going through a bit of a rough patch, but Dustin said that it's going to be okay. I'm thinking about other ways to help and I'm confident that he'll do it. I know that you wouldn't want me to be consumed by the need for revenge. I'm not. I just want him gone. I'm sick of always looking over my shoulder for someone who is supposed to be on my side. I'm scared of having to give him reports. I just want a leader that I can trust and feel comfortable around and I know that Eren can be that. Hopefully I can be that too... especially considering that I am of high standing in the mafia now. Yeah, the Mafia. The one that's allied with the Yakuza. The one that's waaay bigger than the Survey Corps. The little orphan from New Salem, Texas is supposed to amount to the greatness of Alexander Voncürri. I'm going to need your help with that." The time flashes in front of my eyes, my glasses reminding me that it's getting late.

Sighing, I wipe my expression and walk carefully around the castle until I find the balcony. My eyes close as I exhale shakily. It's peaceful here, calming. When I feel myself start to drift off, the sound of a howl jerks me awake.

A howl?

Nervous, I start to creep to the source of the sound, in jaguar mode. I sneak into the courtyard, ready to investigate when I take notice of a familiar face surrounded by wolves.

I look at a wolf.

Can I touch it?

I get on my hands and knees and stay a little distance away, trying to get one to come say hi without tearing my face off.

Cadence opens his mouth, his voice is strong, the voice of a leader. "El nuevo chico no es una amenaza, es de la familia. Vuelvan a sus puestos [The new boy is not a threat, he is family. Return to your posts - Spanish]."

One of the wolves growls and barks.

Cadence smirks. "Sé que está aquí [I know he's here]."

He looks straight at me.

"Si hablo en español, ¿les gustaré a los lobos [If I speak in Spanish, will the wolves like me]?" I hold my hand out patiently.