Always ☼ Bellamy Blake [1]

Chapter 37: The Past 3 Months

(2 weeks after Mount Weather)

"You need to get up" Bellamy says as he threw the cover's off of Sawyer. Sawyer groaned and covered her eyes "Sawyer get up" Bellamy says growing annoyed

"Bellamy stop" Sawyer whined as she turned over. "You need to get up and you need to shower now" Bellamy says frustrated. "Leave me alone!" Sawyer calls out

"Your father is waiting for you in the garage he needs help with the rover" Bellamy says as he picked up the girl's thrown clothes around the room

"Tell him I have a meeting" Sawyer says as she reaches down and covers herself with the sheets. "Sawyer if I need to tell you to get up one more time-" Bellamy yells only for Sawyer to yell "I can't!"

"And why not?" Bellamy asks rushing over to the bed. Their heads turn to Peta who walked into the room. "Sorry" she apologizes. Bellamy shakes his head "Don't apologize" he says

Peta smiles and walks over hugging him. "She won't get up?" she asks. Bellamy sighs nodding and turns "Your not spending another day in this bed Sawyer get up!" he scolds

"Get out" Sawyer growls from under the sheets. "Sawyer-"

Sawyer sat up beyond livid at his persistence "I can't do this anymore" she sobs. Sawyer's knees moved up to her chest and Sawyer sobbed as she held herself. Bellamy sighs

Sawyer had been depressed, some days she couldn't even get out of bed. She'd get up and act normal in front of the people but then would come back to the room and break down

Bellamy walked to the bed and sat in front of the broken girl. Peta walked out of the room not wanting to intrude on a moment for the couple

"It's ok to break down a little but Sawyer this has got to stop" Bellamy begged as he held her "I'm sorry that I am not this strong soldier that doesn't feel pain" Sawyer says pushing Bellamy off

"Sawyer-"

"I can't sleep! I can't eat! I can't even keep my eyes open for long because I keep seeing them" Sawyer yells as her body started shaking. PTSD was beginning to take over the girl's mind

Bellamy honestly had ran out of words to motivate her. Nothing was working. It frustrated him, he just wanted to be happy and move on with the girl in their relationship but mentally Sawyer had taken 10 steps back

With Bellamy's silence Sawyer had fallen back on the bed and covered herself with the sheets

"Do you even want to be with me?" Bellamy asks clenching his jaw 

"I can't talk about this right now" Sawyer said blowing the boy off 

"No, we're gonna talk about it because i'm sick of you constantly pushing me away! I want you Sawyer and I have made that clear and you keep pushing and pushing and I can't take half of you anymore. I want all of you and i'm sick of putting myself out there and getting nothing back. So when your ready to be with me, you know where I am"