Jailbird

~Part 2: Chapter 7~

"Zedlin's been asking for pictures of me, which I clearly can't send him," I told Elise.

It had been a few days after I last talked to Zedlin. He didn't call me as often as he called David, but I would hear from him at least once a week; so it was a start.

Elise had came to the school and offered to take me out to lunch. We were just five minutes down the road at a local Subway.

She threw her hair to the side, "We could get creative and send him pictures of you at certain angles. Hell, would he even recognize if you sent him an old picture?"

"I have no clue, but I'm stressed out, now. I have to tell him, there's no other way and he's going to be pìssed..." I muttered, looking down at my sub and suddenly losing my appetite.

I was stuck in a whirlwind of confusion, because I deeply wanted Zedlin to accept the fact that I was pregnant with his kid and I wanted him to try being a father.

I also knew it was a lot to ask out of someone like him. Not to be rude, but mentally, he was a fùcking mess...

Elise snapped her fingers in front of my face, "Earth to Sienna, come back to me."

"Sorry, just lost in my thoughts," I said.

"Clearly," Elise chuckled, "but on a brighter note, have you started shopping for baby stuff?"

Ugh, now I have to worry about that, too!

My face fell, "No, I haven't. I've just had so much going on."

"I get it. How about I take you some place and help you grab a few gender neutral things? You're still deciding to keep it a secret?" Elise had asked me.

My teeth dug into my bottom lip, "I actually had an idea for a gender reveal... think of it as two reveals in one."

Elise rose a questioning brow as she waited for me to explain it to her.

"So, I had an idea to send the gender results to Zedlin..." I trailed off and waited for a response.

I watched Elise take a sip of her drink, then sit it down onto the table and clasp her hands together.

"He would have to call me and let me know if we're having a boy or a girl," I continued.

"And that's how you want to do it?" Elise asked me.

My head nodded, "Yes."

It was the only way in my head that made me feel good about it, but also giving him time and space to accept it and react accordingly.

Zedlin talked to me about once a week and he always mentioned how he'd been talking to a therapist for a lot of different reasons.

I secretly hoped that one of those reasons was his anger issues.

Elise sighed heavily, "Fine. You're the mother and what you say goes, but just be careful, Sienna. Zedlin has a history of kicking you when you're down. I don't want to see him hurt you on this, when you clearly care so much about him being involved."

"I don't--" I went to defend myself, but she cut me off.

"You do want him to be involved and that's okay, but all I ask is that you mentally prepare yourself in case he doesn't want to be at all," she said softly.

At that, I just nodded my head and forced myself to eat a few more bites out of my sub. Elise clearly cared about my heart when anywhere near Zedlin.

I couldn't hate her for that, because sometimes I needed someone to let me know when my heart has had enough.

Sometimes, I thought it was invincible -- until it got broken.