Save My Heart {Zero x Reader}

Saint or Sinner

I nodded.
 
He let go of my wrist.
 
He stepped back.
 
I ran to my room.
 
        Since that day I tried to avoid Kaname. I don’t go to the gates to see the Night Class Students passing by and my friends are wondering why I don’t hang out with the Night Class these pass 4 days. I just tell them that I have homework or that I am sick; I just make an excuse to not worry them but I need to tell them or someone about what happened on Saturday after I finished singing.
 
        I really need to tell someone but who? If I tell Zero, he will find out about everything that I am keeping from him and he probably  would hate me and he would stop talking to me, so that is a big NO. I can’t tell Yuuki because I don’t like her and she probably   hates me too. I know that she is trying to act like she is a good girl, a saint, an angel but she isn’t. She always looks at me with such hate, like please brownie{nickname of Yuuki}, I am not stealing Zero; he is not a property and besides you have Kaname, I will diffidently give you Kaname is a big box present with roses all around him and a card that said:

        “I, _______ ________, give you Kaname Kuran, the leader of the Night Class Students, the Prince Charming that all girls except for me want it. The,  I am sooo Hot that the sun doesn’t affect me. The two face, in the outside an angel but in the inside the devil, Kaname Kuran.

PS: I hope that you like it, I have him all tied up just for you. With love ________.  ;) <3 :)"

     Yep, I need to do that…….Like I was saying, I can’t not tell Star about what happened because she will tell Moon and Moon will tell Zero and I don’t want a big fight about it. I’m going to tell Blue. I am going to tell her what happened last Saturday, I know that she doesn’t like Kaname so maybe she will help me to break in to the Night Class Dorms……But why I want to go to the dorms if I am scare as HELL because of Kaname Kuran.  I only live once so I am going to break in if Kaname sees me, he would probably kills me and I don’t care {Maybe I do}.
 
        I was looking for Blue on the hallways. I walked around the schools but I didn’t find her so I went to the garden. I sat down on the Sakura tree, like I always do. I took out my notebook and I started to write and sing a song {At the same time} by The Cab “Angel with a Shotgun”.

(I'm an angel with a shotgun, shotgun, shotgun,
 An angel with a shotgun, shotgun, shotgun..)
 
 Get out your guns, battle's begun,
 are you a saint, or a sinner?
 If love's a fight, then I shall die,
 with my heart on a trigger.
 
 They say before you start a war,
 you better know what you're fighting for.
 Well baby, you are all that I adore,
 if love is what you need, a soldier I will be.
 
 I'm an angel with a shotgun,
 fighting 'til the war's won,
 I don't care if heaven won't take me back.
 I'll throw away my faith, babe, just to keep you safe.
 Don't you know you're everything I have?
 ..and I, wanna live, not just survive, tonight.
 
 Sometimes to win, you've got to sin,
 don't mean I'm not a believer.
 ..and major Tom, will sing along.
 Yeah, they still say I'm a dreamer.
 
 They say before you start a war,
 you better know what you're fighting for.
 Well baby, you are all that I adore,
 if love is what you need, a soldier I will be"

I was writing and singing the song when I froze because I felt someone breathing on my ear.
 
“Well, you diffidently are a soldier and a dreamer but are you a saint or a sinner. I cannot tell, will you tell me _________-Chan, I can’t figure out the answer” the voice told me.
 
I gulp.
 
It has to be Kaname. And I was trying so hard to avoid him. You just have a good luck my friend.
 
“I-I…” I didn’t know what to say.
 
“What is wrong ________, are you alright” he asked still breathing on my ear.
 
I nodded.

“I-I have to g-go” I said to him while I get up.
 
        When I get up and I was about to leave Kaname took me by the wrist and he pushed me to the Sakura tree. Why is always has to be a freaking tree, why?!
 
I looked down trying to avoid eyes contact but he ordered me to look at his eyes so I, stupidly obey.
 
“Why are you avoiding me?” he asked me in a calm but dangerous voice.
 
“I-I am not. I-I was just sick and I-I have a lot of h-homework that’s all” I lied.
 
He stayed quite. He knows that I am lying to him but he didn’t said anything.
 
        He looked at me “Remember what I told you last Saturday, _________- Chan. So do not avoid me because we are still friend, got it”
 
I didn’t said anything.
 
“Got it!” he raised his voice a little.
 
I nodded.
 
“Say it” he told me.
 
“What?” I asked him.
 
“Said that we are still friends” he demanded.
 
I closed my eyes and then opened it.
 
I fake a smile “We are still friends, Kaname-kun”
 
        He leaned closer to me “This is the last time that you fake a smile, next time I want a real smile, and that is an order” he told me with a serious and frightened voice.
 
I nodded and he left.
 
Why life hates me so much?

~~~~Thanks to hugs_for_hippies for the cover for this story~~~~