a simple crush (Bradley Simpson Fanfiction)

chapter 9 (it's wrong)

Sarah wakes up in Brad's arms the next morning. they lay around for a long time. just looking at each other softly. his hand gently on her cheek moving her hair out of her eyes every now and then. she scoots closer to him kissing him softly.  once it heads for noon Brad softly sighs

"i have to get going beautiful" he tells Sarah softly

he crawls out of bed and she watches him get dressed. he smiles as his eyes lock with hers

"having fun?" he asks smilign softly

she sits up and smiles pecking his lips

"last night was incredible" she says softly

he smiles and nods getting dressed. she quickly slides on an over sized shirt and smiles

"i'm really sad that i have to get going" he says softly

"just for a while right?" she asks

he looks at her tenderly

"my flight leaves in an hour" he admits "i won't be back for almost a year"

her heart breaks. he won't be back. he's leaving after a one night stand. she follows him out to his car and he kisses her one last time

" i love you Sarah" Brad says "when i get back you want to go out?"

she has to do what's best for herself.

"thanks but no" she says

his heart breaks a little and a piece of her falls apart. he opens his car door

"are you really turning me down?" Brad asks

"Bradley we had fun last night but i'm still only 16. i'm just not into you anymore. i moved on" Sarah lies

he looks at her with anger and hurt.

"fine. good thing bitch" he mumbles

he gets into his car and slams the door shut. she walks to her front door and watches as he drives away. after he's out of sight she goes inside and walks to the bedroom with tears falling down her cheeks. she picks up a glass vase and throws it at the wall watching it shatter.

Marissa goes to the airport with Connor. they meet up with the other boys and Brad looks destroyed

"what happened?" she asks him

"n-nothing" he lies "Sarah just umm.. she doesn't want to go out"

"that's not like Sarah" Marissa says worried "i'll talk to her and have her skype you"

"n-no thanks" Brad says "s-she has her reasons. it's ok"

Marissa nods hesitantly and gets everyones numbers. she kisses Connor goodbye. the kiss is slow and passionate. it sends chills through her body.

"i'll see you soon beautiful" Connor says softly to her

"bye babe" she says smiling softly "i love you"

"i love you too princess" he says softly

he leaves and she goes home to figure out how to ask Sarah why she turned the love of her life down

Sarah picks up one of the shards of glass and digs it into her wrist leaving a cut. she leaves cuts going up and down her left arm. she looks at herself in the mirror and sighs. she grabs her leather jacket and goes out to the pharmacy grabbing pink and black hair dye. she takes it home and looks at herself in the mirror. she sections off strips of her hair and mixes the pink hair dye. she squirts it into her hair rubbing the cold gel into her hair. barely needing much for black. she puts in the black hair dye and sighs as she waits for the hair dye to set. she looks at her phone and sees a picture of Brad taking pictures with fans. she sighs as she rinses her hair letting the water run through her hair. she blow dries her hair and looks at the finished product. she takes a picture of herself in the mirror. she looks at the picture and walks to her closet pulling out a skimpy outfit. she slides it on and then takes a picture in the full mirror. she smiles at the picture and tweets it

'just finished dying my hair! killer look! xoxo - Sarah'

she watches as it gets alot of retweets. Marissa walks to Sarah's house and her jaw drops seeing Sarah's new look.

"Sarah is that really you?!?!" Marissa asks in shock

Sarah smiles

"the one and only!" she says smiling "you like?"

"oh my god that looks so different!" Marissa says "i never thought i'd see you go punk"

"just a new look for my new life" Sarah says "i'm done following the old rules. my mum is gone and Brad isn't my problem anymore. i'm finally free!"

Marissa walks over to her and hugs her. she hugs back and they spend the rest of the day watching movies and eating popcorn.

Brad tries not to let tears slip as he goes on twitter. he looks at  a picture somebody retweeted. his eyes widen

"who is she?" Brad asks himself

he looks at the tag and after a few minutes realizes it's from Sarah's account. his jaw swings wide open. he shows James

"holly fuck your ex looks damn hot!" James curses "that can't be Sarah"

"i'll text her and ask if she dyed her hair" Brad says hesitantly

he brings up her texts with him and sighs

'hey Sarah can i ask something?'

'to Brad: sure i guess...'

'from brad: what colors did you dye your hair?'

'to Brad: pink with a few black strands. you like?'

'from brad: all of us love it!'

Sarah smiles to herself at the same time as Brad smiles to himself.

'from Brad: i am real sorry about everything. we still friends?'

Sarah hesitates and thinks before replying

'to Brad: course:-) '

Sarah and Marissa both shut off their phones and eat some ice cream. as Sarah eats her ice cream she thinks about everything last night

"so what happened with you and Connor?" Sarah asks smiling wide

Marissa smiles wide

"i think he loves me" she admits "it's simply perfect"

Marissa smiles and nods

"he did use protection right?" Sarah asks her smirking

"of course he did! it was my first time give me credit Ms. Winter" she says blushing "how did things go with Brad?"

"well he drove me home and we just sat there. i don't think either of us wanted the night to end. before i knew it our lips were together and i was on his lap. he unbuckled and carried me to the door and we ran inside and then he layed me down on the bed and we made love" Sarah admits

"did he wear protection?" Marissa asks

"of course i mean we slide of each others shirts. he took off my skirt and his jeans and boxers. he took off my underwear and bra and t-" her jaw drops wide open trying to remember protection.. ".... h-he made love to me"

"i didn't hear protection" Marissa says getting worried

"yeah i didn't remember any protection" Sarah says as her heart races

"o-ok we shouldn't panic i mean the chances of you being pregnant after your first time is almost impossible" Marissa says

"it wasn't my first" Sarah admits "w-we dated in the past and hid it from the public since it was illegal. and well... he was my first but it was months ago"

Marissa's jaw swings wide open

"w-we better get you a pregnancy test and take in in about two weeks" Marissa says hugging Sarah "everything is going to be ok"

Sarah hugs back. just the thought of being a single parent scares her. it scares her more to think of telling Brad that she's pregnant if she is. it would ruin his career along with the other boys's career. she can't let him find out it's his. he can't ever see her again. if he does she'll ruin his life

and she can't do that to him