ROUGE (androgynousxstraight)(bxb) -ongoing

Chapter 12 - The Overflowing Water ®

Chapter Twelve
"The Overflowing Water"
Steaming Hot Scene®
Daniel Rouge Gustilyo's Point of View

No one dared speak about that kiss again. At parang wala lang kay Theo. Kasi alam ko naman na sanay na 'yon sa mga bagay na iyon. He was driving his car at papauwi na kami ngayon sa bahay. Nakatingin lang ako sa bintana ng sasakyan nito.

Nang nakarating na kami sa bahay ay agad akong sinalubong ng Mom nito. "You're just in time for the fitting!" She exclaimed. May lumapit naman sa amin na isang babae na may dala-dalang magazines.

Just then I remembered. I must had forgotten about today's occasion. May dadating pala na mag-fi-fit para sa damit ko at kung ano ba ang susuotin ko para sa debut ko this month.

I also forgot about this damn debut that they are anticipating for.

Wala naman akong paki-alam sa debut ko o sa birthday ko. Kasi 'di naman ako sanay na sini-celebrate ito, knowing that I grew up in a poor family.

As soon as we got ourselves in the receiving area, the woman started fitting me and took notes of my body's size. I couldn't care less about it. Kasi pagod ako ngayong araw sa kaka-iyak. While I was being fitted, nag-usap usap si Mom at ang staffs naman for the party kung ano gusto niyang mangyari. Wala naman akong paki-alam kasi hindi naman aking pera ang iwawalgas diyan. After all, all I have to is to say yes to what they want me to.

"You know what? Ang ganda mo." Pagpupuri sa akin ng babae. "Kung lalaki ako nainlove na ako sa iyo maam."

Her remake did not make me feel uneasy when she called me Maam. Alam ko naman na i'm an androgyne. But she didn't have to state the obvious so I just smiled at her in return. "And you're lucky that you were born in this family. Ang bait-bait ng Gustilyos." She added. 'Di na ako umimik at naupo nalang sa upuan nang matapos ito.

She gave me a magazine. "Maam Angeles told me you'll love this gown." Nabigla naman ako nang pinakita niya sa akin ang gown na pinili nito. It was a red ball gown dazzled with whatever sparkling s-hit they call that details.

It made me feel more uneasy because I am going to wear gown in my debut.

A gown.

Napalunok na lamang ako at binigay sa kaniya ang magazine. Napahilot ako ng sentido. I feel so tired today that's why I asked her. "May gagawin pa ba?" Tanong ko sa kaniya. Umiling lang ang babae kaya nag-excuse na akong papasok na ako sa loob ng kwarto ko.

When I got inside the room I suddenly fell asleep.

Pagkagising ko, I decided fo take a bath. Pumasok naman ako sa loob ng banyo at naghubad na. I noticed I was already thinner than I used to. At ang haba na ng buhok ko. I look like I'm not the Roughelio I used to before.

Agad ko namang in-on ang bathtub at sinalang ang sarili ko sa tubig. Binasa ko ang sarili ko and then I started crying again.

I feel so miserable.

I just feel so damn miserable.

I know I am lucky to have this and that. Na may pamilyang sumusuporta sa akin. But why do I feel so miserable?

Kasi I can't do anything but to say yes to what they want me to do?