ROUGE (androgynousxstraight)(bxb) -ongoing

Chapter 19 - When I Think of You, I Don't Feel So Alone

Chapter Nineteen
"When I Think of You, I Don't Feel So Alone"
Daniel Rouge Gustilyo's Point of View

This is what I hate most about guys especially Theo Marco. One minute he'll treat you like nothing the next minute you'll be like everything to him.

While on the road wala kaming imikang dalawa. I didn't dare speak to him because I don't want to blurt out words I'll regret later. Abala lang si Theo sa pagda-drive until we reached a beach. Dinala pala nito ako sa isang seaside restaurant.

The sky was painted pink, blue and faded in gray when we reached the place. Napakalawak ng lugar at maliit lang ang tao dahil 5 na ng hapon. Ang lamig rin nga dahil ber months na at ang gaan-gaan lang tingnan ng beach.

It feels like you're in another part of the province although nasa city part din ang beach na'to. The sound of the waves meeting the shore is so good to listen to, ang gaan lang sa pakiramdam ng lugar na'to. Napahawak naman ako sa katawan ko dahil sa lamig. Then suddenly Theo hugged me from behind and I felt him kiss my head. "You're gonna love it here." Ani Theo as we both walk ourselves inside a diner.

'Di na ako nagsalita dahil sa bigla sa ginawa nito sa akin.

Theo asked if we could eat outside the restaurant and the waiter guided us outside at pinaghandaan kami malapit sa dalampasigan. Kasi may open restaurant pala sila na sa labas ka makakaupo at iseserve lang sa'yo ang pagkain while you enjoy the view of the seaside. Theo chose the menu himself and we were served parboiled octopus and it looks raw and it comes with a sauce, so you have to eat it raw? A stir fried steak and with octopus tails and sweet and sour prawns, Theo also ordered rice for himself and for me vegetable salad. Parang hindi ito nagugutom eh.

Men and their big ass appetite.

He started eating meanwhile I fiddled with my own food. I only ate vegetable salad dahil ayaw ko namang kumain ng marami. "You're not going to eat again? Gusto mo subuan naman kita?" I rolled my eyes at him again. "Or maybe you want me to feed you with something instead?" Parang nabulunan ata ako nang sinabi niya 'yon.

"You don't really know how to filter your month Theo, ano?" Iritable kong tanong sa kaniya as I continue eating the salad. Just then I remembered I almost choked with his' when I gave him head once. Kaya parang nawalan ako ng ganang kumain.

"Open your mouth." Utos nito sa akin at inalok ako ng isang sugpo na binalatan nito. "Say ah." He ordered again kaya 'di na ako nagdalawang isip at ngumanga at sinubo ito sabay irap sa kaniya.

As usual he will keep on offering me food at kakainin ko naman ito. But I stopped him halfway dahil ayaw ko naman na tumaba sa kaka-dada. "I'm already full" ani ko rito.

Pagkatapos nitong kumain, biglang nag-ring ang kaniyang phone. "Excuse me for a minute." Ani Theo atsaka ito naglakad at sinagot.

He can answer his phone in front of me naman. Why would he distant himself from me? Am I that nosy when it comes to his business?

I noticed he was glad to answer the phone call although he wasn't smiling, since it was his nature after all to have that stoic face.

I just observe him as he talk to the other line at nang natapos ay nilahad nito ang kaniyang kamay sa akin para yayain ako na maglakad-lakad. Naglakad-lakad lang kami sa buhanginan, he held my hand tightly at pinisil-pisil pa niya ito.

"Have you listened to Vanilla Twilight?" Tanong ni Theo sa akin all of a sudden.

I remember I stumbled upon that song and it describes this environment we're actually situated into.

He tried to sing a line. "The silence isn't so bad, 'til I looked at my hands and feels sad. Cause the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly." He murmured as he kiss me on my forehead at pinaharap ang kamay naming dalawa, pinisil niya ulit ito.

Theo is being sweet or is he just naturally like this? I wonder. I closed my eyes as his lips touch my forehead again.

"I'm drenched in Vanilla Twilight, I'll sit on the front porch all night. Waste deep in thought because when I think of you, I don't feel so alone." He uttered in melody. Suddenly it occured to me that he was happy when he thinks of me. Theo likes me.

Does he?

"S-hit this is going to be pretty cringe. Dan. Pero, every time I feel alone you're the only one I think about." Panimula ni Theo. "You're like this type of song that accompanies me at night and I can't just get you off my head. I don't feel alone when I think of you. Even in my sleep you're there. It's crazy. It's real crazy." Napapa-iling siya habang sinasabi niya ito sa akin.

Napalunok naman ako sa kaniya kaya hinigpitan ko ang pagkakahawak ko sa kaniyang mga kamay. Nabigla lang talaga ako sa sinabi nito sa akin.

"Do you like me?" Tanong ko sa kaniya, this is what I wanted to ask him all along, I've been meaning to ask him this question and now is the right time to ask him this. He just gave me a smile, that foolish grin that makes him look so cute.

He was just smirking at me. Theo's eyes were locked onto mine. Agad akong lumapit sa kaniya para halikan siya sa kaniyang labi and he cupped my cheek just so he can deepen it even more.

I can't help but feel so happy. Theo Marco finally confessed to me.

He also likes me.

I closed my eyes just so I could feel this moment, I will not forget this moment.

The moment the bipolar son confessed to me.

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