My Navy Alpha

Chapter 14

Chapter 14

-Laken-

Silence.

We were totally enveloped in silence.

Austin didn't say anything, and I didn't say anything. It was all hard to take in. One moment I'm running out of a room crying, then he's saying good-bye and I find out he cuts, then I'm chasing after him to the airport. I was almost to late, if I had taken just a few more minutes he would have been gone; possibly forever too.

Looking over I see that Austin is very tense. His hands clenched around the steering wheel. God why was I so stupid. How did I not see it before? He has needed me all this time and I didn't even know it.

I couldn't help the tears that started brimming over, so looking for comfort I grab ahold of Austin's right hand. Sighing heavily, Austin starts pulling the car over to the side of the dirt road leading to the pack house.

He turns off the car and sits back but still doesn't say anything. I myself didn't say anything either as I sobbed pitifully. I cry and cry till I can't cry anymore. I look over and see that Austin still hasn't moved or done anything.

"Say something!" I yell at him.

He doesn't even flinch.

"Say something!" I yell agin.

He sighs before reaching for the keys again. Getting really angry I grab the keys out of the ignition before he can and throw them out my open window. Probably not the best idea.

Still Austin doesn't say a word, instead he gets out of the truck and goes and gets the keys. Once he is back in I couldn't help but push him, and hit him. I wanted a reaction. No, I needed a reaction. He was not a lifeless soul that only shows emotions when needed.

"Is this what you want? Do you want to leave? Go ahead I don't care. Hate me! Reject me! I don't need you." I scream louder, seething.

Why was I being such a, a b!tch? What was wrong with me? This is not Laken Clarks, this is not me.

I grab onto his arm and bury my face in it,"Please Austin please say something, anything!" I cry, clutching his shirt.

Why is he not saying anything?

I finally feel his chest heave as if he was crying too. I quickly look up and see a few tears streaming down his face. Grabbing his face I kiss him furiously. His hand comes up to hold my neck, and his other goes to my hip.

God what was wrong with me? This is certainly not how I acted. Crying, screaming, and then kissing? No something was definitely wrong; but I couldn't help it anymore as my body started growing hot.

"Austin please I need you." I whisper against his lips, before kissing him again.

Austin groans and pulls back,"Laken stop." he says hoarsely.

"What no, I can't. Please I know you want me and I want you." I say trying to kiss him again.

He blocks my advance,"This is your heat talking. It's your wolf."

"But it's not supposed to start for a while though." I say confused, trailing my hand down his chest almost reaching his huge location.

Austin grabs my hand and holds it to my side,"Stop. Laken, stop. It's starting early because we were apart for that amount of time and your an Alpha's mate."

"A sexy alpha's mate." I whisper leaning forward to kiss him.

"Stop." he says louder.

It did nothing but turn me on more, making me moan. He groans frustrated,"Laken stop we are not mating."

I had to admit, that hurt a lot. I take in a shaky breath and nod slowly,"O-oh okay." I say sitting back in my seat.

"Laken, it is not you, it's me. You have to understand that I'm afraid." he says slowly.

I couldn't help but scoff,"Oh okay yeah, do I don't find out about a STD you have? Or maybe you have a kid? Oh no never mind I totally get it, it is me. I can't have kids and you don't want to take the risk of mating and not having a heir? I totally get it, no problem just take me home, you don't have to worry about me anymore."

Austin suddenly hits the dash board with his hand,"Gosh d@mmit that isn't it Laken! I'm not good enough! I am not good enough! I cut myself, I'm weak! Do you not see that? I don't care whether or not you can have kids, if you did is what's is a problem! I refuse to turn out like my dad! I'm never going to be like him! Ever!" He yells.

Have you ever been scared? Not like holy crap where is my phone, but oh my gosh I might lose my life? Well this is how scared I was when Austin yelled. He was furious! His eyes turned red and his teeth started growing and hair started to spurt from his hands.

All I do though is reach over and hug Austin tightly saying,"I love you."

Why were we even fighting? Why did we have all this drama right now? Can a guy PMS?

Austin hugs me back whispering he loves me over and over again. We both calmed down easily and took deep breathes. Still hugging him I said to him,"Austin, you are literally the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are all I think about now. I know we have only known each other a few days but I'm so in love with you it hurts sometimes. If we do have kids I think you will be a great father, I'll always be here for you and our possible future children. If I really can't have any then we can adopt I'm sure. I love you so much."

I repeat the last part over and over again, while I kissed his cheek. Austin whimpers lightly and nods before kissing my neck.

"I'm sorry I just can't keep control of my emotions sometimes. I have no idea what I'm doing sometimes." he says.

"I understand I have trouble keeping my hormones in check. I didn't mean to be so dramatic and piss you off. I'm sorry." I says snuggling into his neck as he continued to kiss mine.

"It's okay.", he mumbled as he kept placing his sloppy kisses on my mark.

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Okay so I stopped here because I realized how long it had been since I updated and also I thought I did a crappy job on this chapter. I have no idea where all of this drama came from, so I'm sorry if it's like super bad.

-Sara