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How I feel

Forth's POV.

I'm the happiest person alive. I know our parents are not against this. They wouldn't let mewith him tonight otherwise. Beam think that he is not worth to love and he is not attractive. I will show him what is on my mind. But first, I need to confirm.

_ Beam. There is a song I always listen when I miss you. Do you want to hear?

_ sure

I opened my app show him his old photo album with my family with this song. I made this in junior high school. I just want to be strong for us. I fight for myself. I just hope Beam would feel the same when I found him.

When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
There's so much they hold

And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?

Well, I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

His eyes got teary. We look each other. I took his hands in my laps.

And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find

'Cause even the stars, they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up

I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences, they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not
And who I am

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up

So easy is our life
What's mine is yours and yours' mine
Hardly do we ever fight
We'd rather be kind

I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get dark
I'm healing this broken heart
I know I'm worth it

I won't give up on us (No, I'm not giving up)
God knows, I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We got a lot to learn (We're alive, we are loved)
Lady, you're worth it (And we're worth it)

No, I won't give up on us (No, I'm not giving up)
God knows, I'm tough enough (I am tough, I am loved)
We got a lot to learn (We're alive, we are loved)
Lady, you're worth it (And we're worth it)
No, I won't give up

I don't know how to describe my love for him. But I can do anything.

_ Beam Can I kiss you?

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this is one of my favorite song. and I really listen this when I miss my boyfriend. 

He is in USA to get his residence. he is one of that ortho god. 

after this covid finishes I will go there and never ever separate. 

I wish he was with me in my country, but we have our passion and I'm not kind of girl who is selfish. I have my ambitious too you know. I'm neuroscientist and will finish my PHT at the same time with him. 

its just we have to do something not related to our jobs due to covit. I'm in a lab. He is with patients. 

I'm afraid of he would get diseases.  

I don't know why I share this much information. hope all you are okay. 

stayhome stay safe ...