"Time doesn't heal anything. It just teaches how to live with pain."
UMINOM ako ng tubig saka pinakalma ang sarili ko. I can feel the familiar pain again─that night when I found out everything about the woman that he got pregnant.
"I want to fucking kill him for making you cry again."
Napalunok ako. Kinapa ko ang pisngi ko. My tears are falling again. Hindi ko man lang naramdaman. Maybe that's how it hurts.
"I just want to... forget him."
"I'll help you, okay? Stop crying." Arion said and wiped my tears.
Hindi ako nagsalita. He raised my chin up and stared at my eyes.
"I'll make sure not to see those fucking tears again."
Why do I have this feeling that I wanted to hug him tight? I am really thankful he's here. Hindi ko alam kung ano magagawa ko kung wala siya.
I never thought I can lean on him in times like this.
Hindi na ako nagdalawang isip pa. I hugged him. I know he didn't expect it.
"Damn..." he whispered. "Maleha."
Mas humigpit ang pagkakayakap ko sa kanya. I never felt this way before. Iyong pakiramdam na gusto mo lang yakapin ang isang tao dahil sobrang thankful ka sa kaniya.
"T-Thank you." I said in my low voice.
"Maleha... fuck."
Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganoon na lamang ang reaksyon niya. Bumitaw siya sa pagkakayakap ko. He then, cupped my face and stared at my eyes.
"You're making me fall for you even more." He said.
Inilapit niya ang mukha niya sa mukha ko saka dahan dahang inilapat ang labi niya sa labi ko. I respond quickly. I just love how soft his lips are.
He closed his eyes and deepen the kiss. Ramdam ko na naman ang kakaibang init sa sistema ko.
I admit, I am freaking mad at Jero for doing things with other woman but here I am doing the same thing with Arion. But I know, we still have differences. Unang una, ginawa niya iyon habang kami samantalang ako, single na no'ng ginawa 'yon. Wala nang kami.
Hindi ko rin namang ginustong gawin ang mga bagay na ganito kay Arion. It's just the situation.
"Maleha, fuck stop me." He whispered.
Lumipat ang labi niya sa pisngi ko papunta sa bandang tainga ko. I felt his warm breath against my ear down to my neck. It gives shivers to my skin. Napapikit ako. Arion is really good at this.
How could I stop him when I love what he's doing right now?
"A-Arion..."
Muli niya akong siniil ng halik. I hate it that I'm starting to get addicted to his lips. Para bang hindi ako magsasawang makipaghalikan sa kaniya.
"No... fuck, no." He said and stopped kissing me.
I looked at his eyes. "What do you mean?"
"You don't know how much I wanted to fuck you but not now. You're not in the situation to... you know, have sex with me. It's just that you're always fuckable."
Natawa ako sa sinabi niya. "Fuckable talaga?"
Pinahid ko ang natitirang luha sa pisngi ko. In instant, he could turn my cries into laughter. I just can't believe his words.
"Damn, how should I say that, then? Ka-fuck fuck ka. Is that right?"
Lalo akong natawa. I don't know why it sounds so funny.
