Lovers In Camera | Heejin

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Heejin

I tried holding back tears until the statement has been officially announced that Y/N and I have broken up since it's been about a week since we last talked to each other. And the break up phase returns..I really didn't want to end things but it's clear, he has feelings for someone else...and I couldn't even stand a chance. What did I even expect? I'm just a plain 'cute' girl everyone hollers for then plays me. Life is hell, relationships are hell, Y/N is hell. I really hate him for everything..

I hate him for kissing me in the first place, I hate him for being a jerk, I hate him for making me cry, I hate him when he's nice, I hate him when he smiles, I hate him when he laughs, I hate him when he makes me happy, I hate him when he was there for me. I hate him for leading me on then leaving me in the end alone.

''Heejin, hey are you okay? We heard that you and Y/N broke up..are you okay honey? What did that jerk do? I will surely let him die in my hands once I see his handsome face. He's really a jerk isn't he? That bastard..'' Yves sat on my bed stroked my hair. Is it really his fault though? Is it his fault that I fell for him? 

''It's not his fault Yves, it was a choice we decided on. Don't hurt him,'' I sat up, rubbing my blood shot eyes from crying. Everything hurts.. 

''Heejin, you haven't eaten in days. We were wondering if you were okay but you said you were fine. Why didn't you tell us? But tell us please, what happened?'' Vivi and Haseul stood by the door, exchanging concerned looks. What happened? What happened was that I fell for the guy I wasn't supposed to...and it didn't work out. 

''It's alright guys, I'll get over him. Can I be alone for a bit though..? I need to think through some stuff..''

''Sure, just call us when you need anything. Don't stress too much about it, I'm sure there is a reason for everything. Feel better soon Heejin,'' The girls left the room as tears unshed, threatening to fall down at any moment. Just then, Hyunjin peeked through the door and sat beside me.

''Hey Stitch, how are you feeling?'' I forced a smile and put my game face on, Y/N may not be with me anymore, however I will always have Hyunjin and I am very thankful for that. I have great friends..

''Better. He was upset big time. He's such a damn hypocrite Hyunjin, a damn hypocrite! I freaking hate him with a passion,'' Thinking more and more about him makes my heart hurt. I really didn't expect to experience this much pain once again. I thought one was already enough, why did I have to do one more? Will I even get another one after this? I won't let it happen. 

''So he lashed out on you when you apparently betrayed his trust? Tch, it's as if he didn't tell his cousin. Don't get me wrong, Minju is a nice person. It's just that her cousin is totally delusional. I'll kill him for you, mercilessly, with my bread,'' Hyunjin made me laugh with her words and what sucks is that it even hurts to laugh. Gosh Kang Y/N, what have you done to me?