Aquamarine (GirlxGirl)

Chapter 78

Beverly's pov

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A nudge in my shoulder brought me back to my senses, I glanced to the woman who gave me a shy smile

"It's gonna be okay" Crystal whispered

"I.. I don't know that... She could be anywhere, I don't know if she's even breathing" I barley muttered out feeling the tears weld up behind my eyes

"Aww come here" the woman said as she pulled me towards her chest

It was my tears that kept my soul alive in the furnace of this pain. They could not extinguish what happened yet only carried me forward until a time comes when that searing pain is distant enough to forget more than remember, and maybe one day erase itself from my brain.

Sure it wasn't the hug that I needed, it wasn't the touch of the girl I love but it was close enough. It was a hug from a mother, Aqua's mother. It was the closest to the girl that I could get

So perhaps it may be an oddity to thank my tears and be proud to cry, yet if that's what saves me from becoming a monster, a person indifferent to suffering and sorrow, then crying was the smartest thing I could do.

"It's okay to cry it out" the woman whispered as her fingers stroked through my hair

"I just miss her so much" I mumbled into her chest

"I know you do sweetheart, I know" the woman said, I could feel her hands grip my back tighter

Then it hit me. Here I was crying over her daughter that she hasn't seen in years.

"I'm sorry" I mumbled and pulled away

"For what?" she asked

"I don't know. Maybe at the fact that you haven't seen Aqua in so long and here I am crying over her because I haven't seen her in a weak. We're both feeling that emptiness, that loss. But I'm being extra and making it harder for you. I'm sorry. I don't know. I'm just, a mess right now. My mind is all over the place-"

"Beverly, you're rambling" Crystal chuckled and held my shoulders

"I-I I'm sorry" I whispered

"Hey, don't be. I miss her. I truly do. But nothing's ever going to come close to the love you two have for each other. You both have something special, I can see it. It's powerful, it's strong. And you're always going to come back to each other no matter what. No one can come close to true love, so it's okay for you to feel. It's okay for you to pour your heart out because it's in pain, but being in pain is okay. You shouldn't apologize for what you're feeling. I love Aqua, I do. And I'm going to have that moment with her, it'll be a moment I'll never forget so don't worry about me" the woman chuckled

"I hope that she doesn't faint when she sees you" I chuckled softly

"You and I both know-"

"She will" We both said in unison before erupting in laughter

A comfortable silence then fell over us. We were currently on the beach, the afternoon sun was dying down it's bright yellow and turning into a shirt that had been washed everyday and the colour started to fade.

The sand was the most gentle hue of gold, almost earthen and muted, the humble star of the scene. I loved this beach because it was where I met Aquamarine. This exact spot that I stood on is were I met the love of my life

Then there is the seaweed, that flora of those salty waves, as deeply green as any high summer foliage. My favourite though, of everything that is here upon the softly rolling dunes, is the tall, tall grass that whispers so sweetly into the gusting breeze. The girls and Adam stood behind us, not too far away but enough to give us a moment.