The Neighbours | VSOO ✔︎

ninety-nine | use me

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Jisoo's POV

Another hour passed which felt like eternity. I can't fall asleep. Silent tears that have been flowing, damping my pillow case.

I turn to my other side and I spot Jennie who is sleeping peacefully.

I need to get away, I need some fresh air.

Slowly getting up, I try my best to be as quiet as possible, making sure not to wake the other girls.

I didn't know where to go, I let my feet drag me.

Heavy footprints, which eventually led me to the beach... the same beach that was once the best memory.

My eyes fixed on my feet, dug under the sands. I wrap my arms around my folded legs. Digging my face in my embrace, the tears I've been fighting hard to stop, come in such generous streams.

I feel my cheeks drench in tears. My walls, the walls that hold me up, make me strong just... collapse. Moment by moment, they fall. I'm trembling. I can't-can't stop. Even when I finally look up, clasping my hands around my shirt near my chest, I feel myself tremble. It's raw, everything, raw tears, raw emotions. I can't stop... I can't stop. Why can't I stop crying?

"Here" I heard a familiar voice.

I turn immediately with my red eyes, cheeks soaked, I lock eyes with him.

"Eunwoo...."

Life a reflex, I stand up, wiping my tears, I ignore his kind gesture, and began to walk large strides further away from him.

I don't need anyone to see me in this fragile state. I already feel stupid, I don't need someone to see me this way too.

"Jisoo wait!" I heard him yell. I ignore him once more. I keep walking, walking with no destination.

"Jisoo..." He got a grasp of my hand, holding it tightly. I refuse to look his way, my back still facing him. I hear his loud breathing, out of breathe from chasing after me.

"Is this because of him? Taehyung?" he asks, catching my attention, I turn to face him quickly.

How? How does he know?

As if he heard my confused thoughts, "It's obvious you like him" he answered.

"It's also obvious he's the reason behind those tears" He finishes as he wipes the single tear that drip down my cheeks.

"You know you're not alone right? Whatever pain you're feeling, you can talk to me, your friends, anyone. Don't ever feel like you have to shoulder all the pain to yourself... You know what they say, sometimes talking to someone about it, can make you feel better."

The way his eyes looked at me with genuine concern, the way his mouth formed in a reassuring smile, and the way his hand radiated warmth, comforted me in ways I least expected.

I couldn't formulate the right words to say or even where to begin. Unconsciously I found myself looking down, my mouth zipped.

"Hey" he sways my hand to catch my attention.

"Actually I just thought of a good idea, come here." Adjusting his grip from my hands, he looks around the empty beach and began to lead me closer to shore.

The cold water, rising and retiring between our feet. I look up at him, my eyebrows knitted from the confusion due to his actions.

"I heard yelling makes people feel better." He smiles so widely, his eyes form a crescent moon.

I blinks a few times, trying to register what he's trying to say.

"Ok, I'll go first." He smirks, breaking our eye contact.

"AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" He yelled loudly.

Unconsciously I hit his arm as an immediate reaction, "Yah! Are you crazy?! People will hear you!" I look around aggressively.

"Kim, who?" He mocks as clearly there was no soul found in the beach but us.

"Come on give it a try." He suggests with hopeful eyes.

I bit the corner of my lips, hesitating to open my mouth. Gulping in my saliva, my mouth open slightly. I look to my side and found Eunwoo look at me with anticipation.

"No I can't do it" I replied in defeat.

Not a full second pass, "AHHHHHHHH" I heard Eunwoo scream yet again.

I found myself laughing at his craziness. Not knowing what took over me, "AHHHHHHHHHH" I yell louder in a higher pitch.

"JISOOOOYAAAAAHHHHHHHH" Eunwoo echoed.

"EUNWOOOOO" I yelled.

Eunwoo chuckled, replying with another loud scream.

"KIM TAEHYUNG! I HATE YOUUU!! I HATE HOW I LIKE YOU SOO MUCH!!! I HATE HOW I WILL NEVER BE THE ONE FOR YOU!!!" I scream with all my might.

"I HATE YOUU"

"I HATE YOUUUUUUU"

"But I still want you..." I softly whisper as my chest rapidly rise up and down from the sudden outburst.

I hadn't realized it but my eyes were forming tears once more. Ugh I am so done with crying! I am so done being sad!

I flinch upon feeling Eunwoos soft hands caressing my cheeks.

I look up at him, our eyes both seeking for answers.

Clearing my throat, I take a few steps back.

"It's really late, I should head back."

"Jisoo wait." He spoke, standing still, his eyes still fixed onto mine.

"I like you."

"Huh?" I let out loudly, my mouth still hanging from the sudden confession I was hearing.

"I LIKE YOUUU KIM JISOOO!!!!!" He yelled, his hands around his mouth as he screamed loudly towards the vast ocean.

"Did you hear it clearly this time?" He asks.

Moments pass, this awkward atmosphere never leaving us.

"I'm sorry Eunwoo, but I like T—" before I could continue, Eunwoo spoke abruptly, cutting me off.

"I know. I know your heart belongs to someone else, but Jisoo I hope you can also look at me, see that there's someone willing to wait for you, and that someone is capable of giving you the love that you deserve."

"Jisoo use me, use me so you can move on from him."