Maybe change isn't bad - Payton Moormeier

thirty-two

PAYTON'S POV
I leave Kadens dorm and go back to mine. I had planned on buying her something which is what I needed the money for. I get the money and some stuff.

"Are you going out" Liam asks

"Yeah why" I ask

"Pick some food up on the way home" he says

"Sure" I say before leaving

Usually Kaden would drive me to where I need to go but obviously she won't now. I have a half an hour walk to the mall. I listen to music while I walk. I go to the Unexpected store and buy her the thing she's wanted for months.

She said she wanted this black and red hoodie that's split down the middle. On the red side it says 'death is expected' and on the lack side it says 'so live unexpected'. Everything is handmade and very expensive. I get it two sizes too big so its oversized just the way she likes it. it costs $85 which is why I needed the other fifty.

A/n: I know Unexpected is an online shop just go with it

I pay and leave. I start the walk back and listen to music. On the way back I get food like I said I would, I get the boys something but I'm not hungry so I don't get anything. I get back to my dorm and put the food in the kitchen.

"Foods here" I shout and they come out of their rooms. I go back to my room and put the hoodie away.

KADEN'S POV
I get woken up Monday morning by the sound of my alarm. I get my phone and snooze the alarm. Not long after it goes off again so I turn off this time and throw it on the floor. Then Maddie comes into my room.

"Get up or you'll be late" she says shaking me lightly

"No" I say rolling over

"Yes, its Monday and that means school" she says

"Tell them I'm ill" I say

"Ok fine" she says before leaving my room

I try to go back to sleep but it doesn't work. I hear them get ready then the boys arrive. Once their all gone I get out of bed. I look in the mirror and see what a mess I am. I get in the shower, I get out and get dressed. I brush my hair for the first time in three days. I get dressed into a basic outfit. I go to the kitchen and get some breakfast and a red bull which reminds me of Payton of course.

I watch tv while I eat, then I tidy up any mess I've made. I do a few other things before watching tv again. The bells for break go and I just ignore it and carry on watching tv. When break is over I go back to my room. I put music on and finish the presentation. I print it out and write down some notes about it on some paper. I put it in my school bag and leave my dorm making sure to lock it. I go to Samantha's office and knock on her door.

"Come in" she says so I go in "Oh Kaden I wasn't expecting to see you" she says

"I know I just needed to talk. How long can you talk for" I say taking a seat

"An hour until lunch but why aren't you in lesson" she asks taking her usual seat

"I took the day off, I told Mads that I'm ill." I say

"Why" she questions

"Me and Payton broke up or we're on a break. I don't know the difference" I say

"What happened, why did you break up" she asks

"Well you know my dream" I ask and she nods "It kinda happened" I say and I explain everything about that day "So I told him I need space. The worst part is he told me he loved me"

"Do you think he meant it" she asks

"I want to and I partly do. I know he would never purposely do it to hurt me and he only did it because he was drunk but it still hurt and now all I can do is overthink. What if he does it again but means it this time" I explain

"Kaden after everything you've been through these past couple of months, especially with your dad, your going to get through this. You need to think about what best for you, how much you can trust him now and if you still like him" she says

"That's the thing, I don't just like him. I love him which is why it hurt so much and I'm finding it so hard to look past it. I'm so scared its going to happen again and I'll lose him for good" I say

"If you love him I'm sure you can find it in you to forgive him, you just need to give it time" she says and the bell for lunch goes "Am I seeing you tomorrow then" she asks

"Can we go back to every Thursday" I ask

"Yeah sure. I will still be here Tuesdays if you want to talk" she says

"Thank you for listening" I say

"It is my job" she laughs and I leave

I make my way to the cafeteria and look for everyone. I finally see them seated at on of the benches at the back. I can see Payton has his hood up and head down. I walk over and stand at the end of the bench and put my bag down.

"Kaden I thought you weren't feeling well" Jordan says

"No I couldn't get out of bed this morning" I say and Payton hasn't noticed I'm here yet. I tap his head and he looks up at me.

"Oh sorry" he says as he takes his Air pods out

"Its fine. Here is the presentation for Friday" I say giving him the power point "I made notes of thing that we will explain in more detail when we present. Come over Thursday so we can go through it and were ready for Friday" I say

"Aren't you seeing Samantha" he asks

"Yeah. You know when my session ends just come over then" I say and he nods "Bye guys" I say before leaving

I go back to my dorm and make some lunch. I get board and theirs nothing to do so I take a nap. I wake up an hour later and watch tv. When schools over I get a text from the girls saying their going out. When I get hungry I make myself something small to eat. I watch tv in the living room until there's a knock at the door, I expect it to be the girls but no its Payton.

"Hi...umm I know you probably don't want to see me right now but I got something for you" he says

"What is it" I ask and he pulls out a hoodie that I've wanted for moths out of his bad "Payton this is $85. How did you get this"

"When Jordan offered the fifty dollars the first thing I thought of was getting you this hoodie and when we kissed all I thought of was how your better and instant regret. So when you say I wasn't thinking of you, I was" he says

"Thank you for the hoodie" I say

"Anything for you" he says with a week smile

"I'll see you tomorrow" I say

"Yeah" he says before turning around and leaving and I go back to what I was doing.