London born Gigi Lastra is struggling to make ends meet let alone make it big in the music business and make a name for herself. Working two jobs to keep her life afloat and provide for her family she's haunted by her past. That's until she meets t...
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Things have been... awkward.
Really fucking awkward and I've found myself feeling more lonely than ever this past week. I don't know what the fuck happened but it's like someone flicked a switch in Colton. He's rude, arrogant and mean... exactly like he was the first time we met.
Maybe I was a bit harsh on him with the whole ignoring thing, but I need to keep my distance and focus, figure some things out, he wouldn't understand. Being around him as much as I was... confused me, made me ignore everything back home... it made me careless.
He obviously doesn't even want to talk to me anymore though which makes my head swim, did I overstep? Did he realise that I'm no longer worth his time anymore, found out about the real me? The one with a fuck tone of baggage. That would explain his rapid mood change. He hasn't said more than a few words to me this week and avoids me every chance he can. We're supposed to be working on this duet but every time I schedule to meet him he either doesn't show or Laycie tags along with him. She spends the whole time shooting daggers at me and trying to make out with Colton and I hate it. I just want to supper glue their frigging lips together so they can always be attached and live happily ever after!
Ugh stop it, Gigi, you sound jealous again!!
Even though he's being a massive ass again... I really miss him, I'm lonely as fuck without his goofy smile, I miss him coming to talk to me before show, without him there to calm me I've already had three panic attacks this week. But on a plus side, I guess, Since I now have a lot of time on my hands I've been hanging out with the girls, Ryan and Jackson a lot more and we've started to ride together on the busses, it's nice having company although it still doesn't feel right without Colton. God, I'm sappy. He's being a dick just ignore him.
Ugh, I just feel very at odds this week however I'm slightly peppier today since we landed in Italy this morning! I haven't been to Italy since I was three, I came with my dad to meet my relatives... not that I remember a thing. Anto rang me this morning, I think he's more excited than I am, he listed several places I should go and several foods I absolutely must try whilst I'm here. Lucky for me we've got two shows, tonight and tomorrow and then three days off to explore the city! I've always wanted to come to Italy, Anto and I talked about it all the time when I was younger, he used to tell me stories about what it's like here and how much he misses it. I'm desperate to do the cliche thing of throwing a coin over your shoulder into the fountain but first, I've got a show to do.
Just as I'm finishing being zipped up into my outfit I hear some sort of commotion coming from outside of my dressing room door, I furrow my brows at Ruby and Ryan who are sat stretching at the far end of the room mirroring my expression. We all hurry up towards the door. Being the nosy parkers we are, Ryan flings open the door and we file out into the corridor. Will's stood with several of the management crew in the hallway, Colton stands further back, our eyes meet briefly and then quickly drop to the floor, but I don't mistake the flash of hurt that runs through them. In front of them, a man holding a clipboard is standing rather flustered trying to communicate with them.
